Valentine's Day Is COMPLETE And Utter Boolsheet

So, while its 1015 or so PST, its after 12 at my home, so, since I'm using the bathroom I figured this was as good a time as any to get in my thoughts about Valentine's Day.

Valentine's Day is complete bullshit.

Heres one reason, I grew up being taught the right thing, that everyone is equal. Men. Women. Black. White. God created us all in his image, so we are all equal.

That being said, why does Valentine's Day have the Aura of it HAS to be a MAN, not the WOMAN who has to do something for the day?

I moved 3000 miles to be with my gf, I have NO JOB cause of this, and no job prospects cause of this... Yet, I'm the one who looks like a fucking scumbag cause my GF isn't getting anything for Valentine's Day because, well, I can't even afford 2 bucks for a card.

Why can't the WOMAN do something and take the lead on Valentine's Day? I've now seen both side of the coin here, which I'll get to, and I don't see why I have to be the bad guy after moving like I did, specifically FOR HER, now that CAUSE of this I have NO MONEY... but I look like the scumbag.

Why is that?

When I worked for the heartless drug chain, I always worked the night before Valentine's Day. Mostly cause 9 of the 11 Vtines Days I was there, I didn't HAVE a gf or a Valentine. I took off only one, which was a trip I than took to see my now ex at school. But, heres what's annoying, watching dudes come in at 3am ON VTines day, buying something cause they FORGOT...

You can't go into a fucking store for 6 weeks previous WITHOUT having it shoved down your fucking throat.

So, what kind of boyfriend are they being when, they are shopping at 3am on Vtines Day and just buying whatever is in the store so they don't look like the scumbag that they are?

See, this is what I mean. Cause I literally can't afford something for my GF, I LOOK like one of those guys, when I'm not.

So, again, my question now is, even if my gf WANTED to pay for Valentine's Day this year, I wouldn't let her since, well, I've had it ALSO ingrained into my head that the MALE is SUPPOSED to take the lead on VTines Day... NOT the female.

So, what than this leaves me with? Yet another Valentines Day that PROVES that Valentine's Day ISN'T and SHOULDN'T be anything special.

Buying shit for your partner on Valentine's Day is like getting drunk on St. Patty's Day or New Years Eve... you do it cause you feel OBLIGATED TOO.... Not cause you WANT TO.

That to me is a load of bullshit. Excuse me, BOOLSHEET

I'm trying to remember anything good thats EVER happened to me on VTine's Day... I remember one year, my Sr. year in HS, I was dating this girl Suzie, who, after we broke up just HATED my guts for some reason... But, what would you have done if your gf, all she EVER did was compare you to her ex-boyfriend? I couldn't deal with it. but anyways, I remember I spent VTine's day with her, I didn't have a car than, so, me and a few of my friends hung out, walked around my town and such, I went into the local food store to get a beverage, and, when I was there, I bought her a box of these Valentine's Heart shaped cakes... She seemed to enjoy it, especially when in HS, you really don't have the money for that sort of thing.

Spent the night at her house I believe with my friend and her friend.

I remember the Valentine's Day I mentioned above, my ex Gf went away to college, and, I spent one year visiting and basically we just hung out in her dorm room for the few days as her roommate had gone home? or somewhere? I don't really remember, and, we had the room to our selves.

The other year I spent with her at school, actually, it's a funny story when you think about it, I booked hotel room cause this year her roommate wasn't going away, anyways, I took her to see Titanic, which I thought was a romantic thing to do, and, I admittedly started to weep at the end, and, my gf at the time laughed at me, not in a menacing manner, but, everyone that was around us was shooting her dirty looks... It was pretty funny than when I noticed it, and, pretty funny now...

The only other Vtine's day that was memorbale to me was, the 1st one when me and my current GF were together, I flew out and surprised her for Vtines day. Spent 5 or 6 days out here, we pretty much just spent 5 days in her bedroom just being together. Seems like the days of doing that are over, as this year, the friday, saturday and sunday previous to Valentine's Day? I spent friday night cooking, saturday, pretty much sleeping while she watched TV with her sister, than we went out to dinner with her sister, spent today... sleeping, than an hour together while we watched the last 50 laps of the daytona bud shootout, and, than I spent the next 8 hours sleeping and watching a movie called Altered, while she spent the rest of the day downstairs watching TV.

as for TOMORROW....

Who knows? She'll be at work, I'll be at home, looking for jobs and such, than prolly cooking dinner. I really don't want to go out again, because, I'll look like the asshole I was describing above when people ask my GF what did your BF get your for VTines Day and shes like nothing.

I think the best part about being single on Vtines Day is that your not olbliged to try and DO anything for anyone, but, all Valentine's Day this year is doing is making me feel like a loser scumbag who shoulnd't have a GF.

So, heres a big THANK YOU to whatever asshole thought an UNPAID holiday like Valentine's Day was a good idea.... Thank you for making me feel like a complete piece of shit, even when I have NO reason too....

Had An Interesting Topic...

...But I seem to have forgotten it during the night. Another day of job hunting on the internetz, getting very tiresome and frustrating and each day goes on. I kinda want to punch 1-800-flowers in the face today, at 645am this morning, they called me. Did a quick search on the internetz when I got up to see who it was, and, others had complained about a telemarkers from 1-800-flowers calling them from that number. Whats annoying is that they lessoffs work out of Brentwood, CA, so, CALLING at 645am THEIR TIME, is calling at 645am my time and waking me up. I don't believe I will be using 1-800-flowers again for this reason.

So, in addition to being a... "Writer", I'm also a..."Cook". I'm actually a lot better at consitently trying to cook than write. From what people tell me, I should cook for people for a living. My gf's mom's husband, whom I respect, has told me on multiple occasions that the dishes I've prepared are better than alot of the high class resteraunts he goes to.

It's flattering.

One thing that I DO feel sets me apart from most cooks in general is, that when I cook something, I love to hear constructive criticizm. Even if the people I am cooking for finds my food phenominal, I always try and find a way to improve on myself.

Like last night, I had made waffles during the day, the box of baking mix was out and saw a recipie on the side for like some apple crumb nut dealee. I decided since we had straberries in the house I'd make it with strawberries and use the banana pudding mix in the closet in the dough to make a strawberry banana dealee.

It didn't come out too bad, but it didn't come out as good as I would've liked. Next time I need to use a second box of pudding mix, as well as some caramel being suggested.

Hm, why did I start talking about that? Oh, its weird to me that people seem to say constantly go with your passions in life. At 35, its not really possible for me to do something like, go to culinary school and become a chef. I'd still need a job. IDK, just weird how life works with some things you know?

Ok, back to job hunting, red cream soda, all in the family, and strawberry/banana dealee.

Bloggin' N Bathroomin' Before Breakfast

So, woke up a little while ago, looked around for some jobs, nothing really I'm qualified to apply for. It's times like these I have to say I wish I would've listened to my parents when I was a kid and stayed in school and got a degree. I prolly wouldn't be out of work right now.

I did go up to Carl's Jr/Green Burrito the other day (another one of those places like Ralph's with extremely excellent customer service) and I saw a Costco up there, so, I'm planning on applying there today. I'm really dragging my feet on the temp agency thing cause I'd really like to have a job with benefits. My gf, the job she has now is thru a temp agency, and, she doesn't have benefits. It's one of the things I miss about working for that heartless drug chain, is that I actually had benefits and the ability to go to the doctor if need be.

So, yeah, will prolly apply at that Costco, and maybe I can get a job there, it's about the only retail store I haven't applied to within 10 mile radius of where I'm living now.

After I finish taking care of business (my colon's workin' overtime) I'm gonna prolly make some breakfast. Looking forward to some sausage and maybe some pancakes. My gf's mother bought her and her sister a new instant grill kinda thing for christmas. It's pretty awesome, the problem is the company is kinda stupid. It's on a decline from back to front, so when you cook stuff, the grease and oils flows OFF the grill into a resivor and into a little bucket draw that attaches to underneath.... pretty cool, but they are dumb because, on the box, they showed... bacon, sasuage... AND EGGS. With the decline, the eggs don't sit FLAT and run off.... kinda dumb because there is NO PIECE to sit the grill level. You would think that the would've built something INTO the legs so when you were making eggs or pancakes you could pull it down, and it would sit flat.

Anyways, 2 Powerade caps fixed that problem.

But, yeah, looking forward to some sliced sausage more than some pancakes. Something smells bad in this bathroom, and NOT what you think it would be. I'm in the downstairs bathroom, and, it smells like fabric softner, but its SO overpowering it's almost making my eyes water. Its pretty heinous.

Anyways, maybe I'll apply for Costco previous to breakfast. Already a bit depressed about not being able to find much on Monster and Indeed. At least if I apply, I'll feel like I actually accomplished something today.