Valentine's Day Is COMPLETE And Utter Boolsheet

So, while its 1015 or so PST, its after 12 at my home, so, since I'm using the bathroom I figured this was as good a time as any to get in my thoughts about Valentine's Day.

Valentine's Day is complete bullshit.

Heres one reason, I grew up being taught the right thing, that everyone is equal. Men. Women. Black. White. God created us all in his image, so we are all equal.

That being said, why does Valentine's Day have the Aura of it HAS to be a MAN, not the WOMAN who has to do something for the day?

I moved 3000 miles to be with my gf, I have NO JOB cause of this, and no job prospects cause of this... Yet, I'm the one who looks like a fucking scumbag cause my GF isn't getting anything for Valentine's Day because, well, I can't even afford 2 bucks for a card.

Why can't the WOMAN do something and take the lead on Valentine's Day? I've now seen both side of the coin here, which I'll get to, and I don't see why I have to be the bad guy after moving like I did, specifically FOR HER, now that CAUSE of this I have NO MONEY... but I look like the scumbag.

Why is that?

When I worked for the heartless drug chain, I always worked the night before Valentine's Day. Mostly cause 9 of the 11 Vtines Days I was there, I didn't HAVE a gf or a Valentine. I took off only one, which was a trip I than took to see my now ex at school. But, heres what's annoying, watching dudes come in at 3am ON VTines day, buying something cause they FORGOT...

You can't go into a fucking store for 6 weeks previous WITHOUT having it shoved down your fucking throat.

So, what kind of boyfriend are they being when, they are shopping at 3am on Vtines Day and just buying whatever is in the store so they don't look like the scumbag that they are?

See, this is what I mean. Cause I literally can't afford something for my GF, I LOOK like one of those guys, when I'm not.

So, again, my question now is, even if my gf WANTED to pay for Valentine's Day this year, I wouldn't let her since, well, I've had it ALSO ingrained into my head that the MALE is SUPPOSED to take the lead on VTines Day... NOT the female.

So, what than this leaves me with? Yet another Valentines Day that PROVES that Valentine's Day ISN'T and SHOULDN'T be anything special.

Buying shit for your partner on Valentine's Day is like getting drunk on St. Patty's Day or New Years Eve... you do it cause you feel OBLIGATED TOO.... Not cause you WANT TO.

That to me is a load of bullshit. Excuse me, BOOLSHEET

I'm trying to remember anything good thats EVER happened to me on VTine's Day... I remember one year, my Sr. year in HS, I was dating this girl Suzie, who, after we broke up just HATED my guts for some reason... But, what would you have done if your gf, all she EVER did was compare you to her ex-boyfriend? I couldn't deal with it. but anyways, I remember I spent VTine's day with her, I didn't have a car than, so, me and a few of my friends hung out, walked around my town and such, I went into the local food store to get a beverage, and, when I was there, I bought her a box of these Valentine's Heart shaped cakes... She seemed to enjoy it, especially when in HS, you really don't have the money for that sort of thing.

Spent the night at her house I believe with my friend and her friend.

I remember the Valentine's Day I mentioned above, my ex Gf went away to college, and, I spent one year visiting and basically we just hung out in her dorm room for the few days as her roommate had gone home? or somewhere? I don't really remember, and, we had the room to our selves.

The other year I spent with her at school, actually, it's a funny story when you think about it, I booked hotel room cause this year her roommate wasn't going away, anyways, I took her to see Titanic, which I thought was a romantic thing to do, and, I admittedly started to weep at the end, and, my gf at the time laughed at me, not in a menacing manner, but, everyone that was around us was shooting her dirty looks... It was pretty funny than when I noticed it, and, pretty funny now...

The only other Vtine's day that was memorbale to me was, the 1st one when me and my current GF were together, I flew out and surprised her for Vtines day. Spent 5 or 6 days out here, we pretty much just spent 5 days in her bedroom just being together. Seems like the days of doing that are over, as this year, the friday, saturday and sunday previous to Valentine's Day? I spent friday night cooking, saturday, pretty much sleeping while she watched TV with her sister, than we went out to dinner with her sister, spent today... sleeping, than an hour together while we watched the last 50 laps of the daytona bud shootout, and, than I spent the next 8 hours sleeping and watching a movie called Altered, while she spent the rest of the day downstairs watching TV.

as for TOMORROW....

Who knows? She'll be at work, I'll be at home, looking for jobs and such, than prolly cooking dinner. I really don't want to go out again, because, I'll look like the asshole I was describing above when people ask my GF what did your BF get your for VTines Day and shes like nothing.

I think the best part about being single on Vtines Day is that your not olbliged to try and DO anything for anyone, but, all Valentine's Day this year is doing is making me feel like a loser scumbag who shoulnd't have a GF.

So, heres a big THANK YOU to whatever asshole thought an UNPAID holiday like Valentine's Day was a good idea.... Thank you for making me feel like a complete piece of shit, even when I have NO reason too....

Race And Snacks Were Good

Race was good. Looking forward to next weeks Daytona 500 and, to the Nationwide Series Race now that the Cup series guys can't get points.

Snacks were good. Finished up the tacos from the other night, had some chips, some Diet Dr. K since I'm getting MAD FAT, good 2 hours or so.

Anyways, back upstairs watching Invasion of The Body Snatchers (56) by myself. My gf and her sister are downstairs watching Criminal Minds. I have no clue what that show is about, but, while I was cleaning up the kitched, I found myself reciting "Criminal Mintz". I wish I had the drive, I would make a video and upload it to youtube of Mints trying to find ways to be Criminal. Seems like it would be funny watching a Andes' Mint arguing with a Starlight mint about what their next bank job should be, and than a Girl Scout Thin Mint cookie comes in and bitch slaps them both....

But yeah, I can't be doing something productive like that, I've got fatting around to do.

Mad Fucking Deuces On Your Ugly Face

Again, today, not much going on. Woke up at 1pm. Started watching the Bud Shootout. I'm not really too into sports, but I love watching NASCAR, and, watching NASCAR VIA DVR is perfect since not only can you skip commercials, you can fast forward thru caution periods. I prolly wouldn't do this if NASCAR was like it was 15-20 years ago, but, NASCAR throws so many "DEBRIT" cautions, so people can catch up, usually its when fan favorties ar running far back or about to go a lap down, for example, everytime Dale Jr is about to go a lap down, or he gets to running in the Top 5, NASCAR throws a caution for him... So, if NASCAR didn't throw PHANTOM Debrit cautions, I'd prolly listen to the commentary, but, NASCAR throws SHIT LOAD of them.

But yeah, thats how my Valentine's Day eve is going. Slept till 1pm, got up, my GF was still sleeping, headed downstairs with Holly in tow to watch some NASCAR, came up for some redvines a while ago, my GF is now reading.

Prolly hit up the fridge for some leftovers after I'm done in here. Need some snacks for tthe race.

It's gonna be a long season tho, I'm used to watching the races with my dad. In this busy responibility filled world, watching the race with my dad was really the only time I got to spend with him during the week. We would do the lawn on saturday's but thats not downtime/talk time.

The 1st segment of the race is almost over and, it really DOES feel like something is missing.

I miss my mom and dad being out here. It's amazing how spending a few hours a week with them doing something like watching the race was THAT much more awesome than I knew it was.

Anyways, snacks and race!!! At least maybe Holly TheDawg will come watch it with me!!!