Having a bad day. Can't really discuss it cause, well, people read this now. Sadly that means my blog has jumped the shark, because I feel like having to edit my thoughts and conversation and such because it's gonna piss people off, even tho I am RIGHT, well, thats jumping the shark.
Regardless, I enjoy doing this, and, I am ACTUALLY writing, so, I will continue to do this, and instead of focusing on the world around me as I write, I'll try and relay more funny stories about things I've seen.
Anyways, off to have my ONE joy for the day... Walking Holly The Dog!
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Another "Contrary To Popular Belief" Entry
My mom always used to say to me when I was down, I should shave. Cause usually when I get down, I tend to not bother shaving. IDK why this is, it just is...
But, whenever my mom would be all seeing me upset and such, that would be her suggestion.
One thing I learned way too late in life was that everything your parents EVER told you when you were younger was right, I think this is the only exception that I have found over the years.
Shaving doesn't make me feel better. What it DOES do tho, is make me "COOLER", as fat people like me get hot fast.
Case in point is my gf, and the fact shes really thin. You know how you can tell this ain't no lie? My gf is in her bedroom right now, under THREE blankets. These are NOT "THIN" Blankets mind you... shes under a HEAVY ASS comforter type blanket, a REALLY REALLY Heavy type knit/fuzzy thing, and when I say HEAVY, dude, the blanket weighs like 15 pounds, AND shes under the Purple type thinner knit blanket I usually use. At this point in time when I go back into her bedroom to go to sleep, if thats in fact what I do, since, I'm still awake from stress, and I DVR'd Stephen King's Thinner the other night, so I might go watch THAT, but when I get back in there, I'll be sleeping under NO blankets. This is how fat I am, that I'm still hot and its like 50 degrees outside right now. It was 70 last night.
So, yeah, I'm fat. But, shaving DOES make me "COOLER", so its an argueable point than I guess that my mom IS right in that I'm still depressed, but at least I'm not as hot as I was an hour ago.
My gf has asked me to recall the security place tomorrow since the address I gave to the location of the building was WRONG, and she thinks that since none of the security guards at the building I am trying to get a job, don't actually HAVE guns, that she thinks by me screwing up the location, they think I want to work at a BANK, not so much an office building.
I tend to think its a company wide requirement, but, whatever, I'm not the type whose gonna argue about something like this when its real easy for me to make another phone call to ask.
I've also started playing games on the computer, you know, the games that COME with the PC? I started playing Hearts. After a few games I renamed the players from "East", "West", and "North" to Asshole Cheat, Fukstain Cheat, and Douchebag Cheat... Why you ask? well cause it seems like EVERY HAND they stick me with the Queen of Spades... EXCEPT when I'm trying to shoot the moon. I find this to be cheating cause it seems to me when I play that the 3 computer players are playing 3 against 1, and NEVER for themselves. Like, the ONLY TIME one of the computer players gets STUCK with teh queen of spades is when I can actually give it to them, OR, when I CAN shoot them moon.
Its a load of bullshit if you ask me, yet, I play and play and play cause its so frustrating to KNOW how to play this game, yet ALWAYS somehow get screwed.
Anyways, hopefully it won't rain tomorrow. Taking Holly for a walk is the best part of my day out here. Each day i EAT and DON'T at least walk the mile or so with Holly, is me GAINING more weight and getting FATTER. Thank god for Diet Dr. K. If it didn't taste as good as it did, I can just imagine how much fatter I'd be from drinking regular soda.
OH, I'll leave with this note... watched the final 2 days of the Man Vs Machine Jeopardy game... Watson won, but, the highlights for me were how when he got a Daily Double he choose weird random amounts of money to bet, AND how Ken Jennings directly quoted the Simpsons with his 2nd day Final Jeopardy response.... that guy is cool as fuck. I felt bad for him and Brad tho, those 2 guys looked really kinda pissed that they CLEARLY knew the answers, but somehow Watson was buzzing in before them. But Ken Jennings quoting the simpsons was fucking amazing.
But, whenever my mom would be all seeing me upset and such, that would be her suggestion.
One thing I learned way too late in life was that everything your parents EVER told you when you were younger was right, I think this is the only exception that I have found over the years.
Shaving doesn't make me feel better. What it DOES do tho, is make me "COOLER", as fat people like me get hot fast.
Case in point is my gf, and the fact shes really thin. You know how you can tell this ain't no lie? My gf is in her bedroom right now, under THREE blankets. These are NOT "THIN" Blankets mind you... shes under a HEAVY ASS comforter type blanket, a REALLY REALLY Heavy type knit/fuzzy thing, and when I say HEAVY, dude, the blanket weighs like 15 pounds, AND shes under the Purple type thinner knit blanket I usually use. At this point in time when I go back into her bedroom to go to sleep, if thats in fact what I do, since, I'm still awake from stress, and I DVR'd Stephen King's Thinner the other night, so I might go watch THAT, but when I get back in there, I'll be sleeping under NO blankets. This is how fat I am, that I'm still hot and its like 50 degrees outside right now. It was 70 last night.
So, yeah, I'm fat. But, shaving DOES make me "COOLER", so its an argueable point than I guess that my mom IS right in that I'm still depressed, but at least I'm not as hot as I was an hour ago.
My gf has asked me to recall the security place tomorrow since the address I gave to the location of the building was WRONG, and she thinks that since none of the security guards at the building I am trying to get a job, don't actually HAVE guns, that she thinks by me screwing up the location, they think I want to work at a BANK, not so much an office building.
I tend to think its a company wide requirement, but, whatever, I'm not the type whose gonna argue about something like this when its real easy for me to make another phone call to ask.
I've also started playing games on the computer, you know, the games that COME with the PC? I started playing Hearts. After a few games I renamed the players from "East", "West", and "North" to Asshole Cheat, Fukstain Cheat, and Douchebag Cheat... Why you ask? well cause it seems like EVERY HAND they stick me with the Queen of Spades... EXCEPT when I'm trying to shoot the moon. I find this to be cheating cause it seems to me when I play that the 3 computer players are playing 3 against 1, and NEVER for themselves. Like, the ONLY TIME one of the computer players gets STUCK with teh queen of spades is when I can actually give it to them, OR, when I CAN shoot them moon.
Its a load of bullshit if you ask me, yet, I play and play and play cause its so frustrating to KNOW how to play this game, yet ALWAYS somehow get screwed.
Anyways, hopefully it won't rain tomorrow. Taking Holly for a walk is the best part of my day out here. Each day i EAT and DON'T at least walk the mile or so with Holly, is me GAINING more weight and getting FATTER. Thank god for Diet Dr. K. If it didn't taste as good as it did, I can just imagine how much fatter I'd be from drinking regular soda.
OH, I'll leave with this note... watched the final 2 days of the Man Vs Machine Jeopardy game... Watson won, but, the highlights for me were how when he got a Daily Double he choose weird random amounts of money to bet, AND how Ken Jennings directly quoted the Simpsons with his 2nd day Final Jeopardy response.... that guy is cool as fuck. I felt bad for him and Brad tho, those 2 guys looked really kinda pissed that they CLEARLY knew the answers, but somehow Watson was buzzing in before them. But Ken Jennings quoting the simpsons was fucking amazing.
Yet ANOTHER Denial
So, I called about a job before. I was lead to believe that I actually had a chance to get this one. The truth is, I had NO chance.
I call, very nice, common theme out here, I ask about the job opening, and I'm told...
1. You need a guard card. (Don't have one of those, and, They don't train)
2. You need a hand gun and fire arms permit (don't have one of those either)
3. You need 1 years experience working in security (yet again, no)
So YAY, my day started out WONDERFUL... I than go downstairs to get some water and see if anything needs to be cleaned from when I was down there a few hours ago, and, whats this? It's raining.... so this means, my one "fun" thing I do during the day, take Holly TheDawg for a walk, I can't even do THAT today. I think someone should punch Albert Hammond in his uneducated face.. it never rains in southern california my ass.
I've decided, stupidly I might add, to head out and get some lunch. Mainly cause I feel bad Holly won't be able to get out of the house for a little while, but, I have gotten really heavy since I've been here. My belt when I came OUT here was like, I had like 12-14 inches of EXTRA Belt... now i barely have 4 inches of extra belt.
So thats NO lie.
But, I feel bad I can't take Holly out for a walk, so, a car ride will do just as well I'd suspect.
Holly is a very happy dog it seems. Yesterday, Holly, has 2 beds, 1 in my gfs room, and we had oe on the landing outside out room, but the other dog in the house shit and piss all over it, so, its just the foam inside now, we had it standing up in my gfs closet, and when I say closet I mean a FULL room of clothes, NOT a "Closet", so I laid it down and covered it with towels so now instead of just laying on the floor when Holly isn't in our room, Holly has a big fat soft "bed" again. Gotta see if there is a softer type blanket downstairs for Holly, and pop that on there.
Holly has been such a good dog since I've been here, it makes me smile to know that shes happy.
Ok, well, I'm off to get lunch.
I call, very nice, common theme out here, I ask about the job opening, and I'm told...
1. You need a guard card. (Don't have one of those, and, They don't train)
2. You need a hand gun and fire arms permit (don't have one of those either)
3. You need 1 years experience working in security (yet again, no)
So YAY, my day started out WONDERFUL... I than go downstairs to get some water and see if anything needs to be cleaned from when I was down there a few hours ago, and, whats this? It's raining.... so this means, my one "fun" thing I do during the day, take Holly TheDawg for a walk, I can't even do THAT today. I think someone should punch Albert Hammond in his uneducated face.. it never rains in southern california my ass.
I've decided, stupidly I might add, to head out and get some lunch. Mainly cause I feel bad Holly won't be able to get out of the house for a little while, but, I have gotten really heavy since I've been here. My belt when I came OUT here was like, I had like 12-14 inches of EXTRA Belt... now i barely have 4 inches of extra belt.
So thats NO lie.
But, I feel bad I can't take Holly out for a walk, so, a car ride will do just as well I'd suspect.
Holly is a very happy dog it seems. Yesterday, Holly, has 2 beds, 1 in my gfs room, and we had oe on the landing outside out room, but the other dog in the house shit and piss all over it, so, its just the foam inside now, we had it standing up in my gfs closet, and when I say closet I mean a FULL room of clothes, NOT a "Closet", so I laid it down and covered it with towels so now instead of just laying on the floor when Holly isn't in our room, Holly has a big fat soft "bed" again. Gotta see if there is a softer type blanket downstairs for Holly, and pop that on there.
Holly has been such a good dog since I've been here, it makes me smile to know that shes happy.
Ok, well, I'm off to get lunch.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Crazy Assholes Making Lots Of Noise
So I barely got any sleep last night as I had to keep adjusting myself from almost getting rolled off the bed, than when I FINALLY get comfortable? The Yippie dog across the street doesn't shut the fuck up.
When the yippie dog across the street FINALLY shuts the fuck up, low and behold, here comes CRAZY ASSHOLES making lots of noise by doing tree branch trimming RIGHT next to my fucking window... LITERALLY... It was so fucking loud, Holly TheDawg, refused to come into not only my gf's room, BUT refused to go into the room next to ours my gf uses as a closet, AND, refused to stay upstairs all together.
I finally just got up and sulked. It's now about 130pm PST and I got MAYBE 30-45 minutes of ACTUAL sleep last night. Yay me.
The pole saw next to my window reminded me of Matt my ex co-worker calling our boss (in a loving manner) a "Crazy Asshole" cause when we used to trim trees or cut trees down, our boss would go CRAZY!!! I always explained to Matt, dude, its human nature that when you have a Chainsaw or destructive cutting impliment in your hand, you don't WANT to stop using it!
It used to be lots of fun working with Matt, whenever our boss would be cutting shit, I'd just be mouthing to matt and pointing to our boss shaking my head saying..."Crazy Asshole!!!"
Matt would laugh, we'd pack trees into buckets of machines to get thrown out.
I miss my old job. There really wasn't a better job that I could've asked for. Its really a shame I had to quit a job I loved so much.
When the yippie dog across the street FINALLY shuts the fuck up, low and behold, here comes CRAZY ASSHOLES making lots of noise by doing tree branch trimming RIGHT next to my fucking window... LITERALLY... It was so fucking loud, Holly TheDawg, refused to come into not only my gf's room, BUT refused to go into the room next to ours my gf uses as a closet, AND, refused to stay upstairs all together.
I finally just got up and sulked. It's now about 130pm PST and I got MAYBE 30-45 minutes of ACTUAL sleep last night. Yay me.
The pole saw next to my window reminded me of Matt my ex co-worker calling our boss (in a loving manner) a "Crazy Asshole" cause when we used to trim trees or cut trees down, our boss would go CRAZY!!! I always explained to Matt, dude, its human nature that when you have a Chainsaw or destructive cutting impliment in your hand, you don't WANT to stop using it!
It used to be lots of fun working with Matt, whenever our boss would be cutting shit, I'd just be mouthing to matt and pointing to our boss shaking my head saying..."Crazy Asshole!!!"
Matt would laugh, we'd pack trees into buckets of machines to get thrown out.
I miss my old job. There really wasn't a better job that I could've asked for. Its really a shame I had to quit a job I loved so much.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Jeopardy: Man Vs Machine
Clearly the people at IBM are unaware of the Bubblegum Crisis Series, or the Matrix series, or, the Terminator series.
But ok seriously, it was entertaining. For people like me who took the time to watch the NOVA special, today was at times boring due to they were just relaying information already put forth on the special, but, PBS, who watches THAT!?!?!?! LOL.
It was interesting tho watching Brad and Ken playing a computer, and, not one wrong answer was given until after the 1st break, which, I haven't seen yet in my time watching Jeopardy.
Can't wait for tomorrow and weds to see what else transpires.
Dinner was good. slightly over cooked the PAN salmon, and, I fucked up the baked salmon, I wrote down a recipie, and, I wanted to use Junior Johnson's Lightnin Lemonade instead of Bourbon, and, since my mind was drifiting, I put 1/4 cup of Hennessey in it by mistake... came out a tad alcoholy... tasted good with no Soy sause on the rice tho I thought.
Next time, should be able to cook it nice and right with this 1st time turning out well, especially the spices on the pan seared salmon.
Ok, I'm off to bed now. My GF is downstairs watching... Criminal Minds... CRIMINAL MINTZ FTW!!!
But ok seriously, it was entertaining. For people like me who took the time to watch the NOVA special, today was at times boring due to they were just relaying information already put forth on the special, but, PBS, who watches THAT!?!?!?! LOL.
It was interesting tho watching Brad and Ken playing a computer, and, not one wrong answer was given until after the 1st break, which, I haven't seen yet in my time watching Jeopardy.
Can't wait for tomorrow and weds to see what else transpires.
Dinner was good. slightly over cooked the PAN salmon, and, I fucked up the baked salmon, I wrote down a recipie, and, I wanted to use Junior Johnson's Lightnin Lemonade instead of Bourbon, and, since my mind was drifiting, I put 1/4 cup of Hennessey in it by mistake... came out a tad alcoholy... tasted good with no Soy sause on the rice tho I thought.
Next time, should be able to cook it nice and right with this 1st time turning out well, especially the spices on the pan seared salmon.
Ok, I'm off to bed now. My GF is downstairs watching... Criminal Minds... CRIMINAL MINTZ FTW!!!
Oh, Yay, It's Valentine's Day...
Insert rolleyes icon here.
Just another day.
Funny, I've gotten job offers.... none of which are for out here in California. NICE.
Makes my day.
Wish it made me happy to hear that, but, the situation I'm in, moving at this moment isn't an option. Thats pretty sad.
Anyways, so yeah, it was 3 months yesterday I believe that I got out here. Time sure stands still when you don't have anything to do other than look for jobs online and sleep.
I'd like to go do some stuff, but, I get told that I should WAIT till my gf can go, but than, we never go... I really want to go mail letters from Twin Peaks LOL... I can send myself a pretend response from Laura Palmer as if I responded to her ad in Flesh World!!!
I should shave. my beard and goatee are getting ridiculously long.
I should really watch Winter's Bone again, I keep reading that its an amazing movie. I've watched it twice already and found it to really be, not good.
Maybe I'll take Holly for a walk after I'm done in here so I'm actually doing SOMETHING today OTHER than just pretty much nothing.
So tired of this, I really wish there was something more for me, but it sure does seem like this is it.
Just another day.
Funny, I've gotten job offers.... none of which are for out here in California. NICE.
Makes my day.
Wish it made me happy to hear that, but, the situation I'm in, moving at this moment isn't an option. Thats pretty sad.
Anyways, so yeah, it was 3 months yesterday I believe that I got out here. Time sure stands still when you don't have anything to do other than look for jobs online and sleep.
I'd like to go do some stuff, but, I get told that I should WAIT till my gf can go, but than, we never go... I really want to go mail letters from Twin Peaks LOL... I can send myself a pretend response from Laura Palmer as if I responded to her ad in Flesh World!!!
I should shave. my beard and goatee are getting ridiculously long.
I should really watch Winter's Bone again, I keep reading that its an amazing movie. I've watched it twice already and found it to really be, not good.
Maybe I'll take Holly for a walk after I'm done in here so I'm actually doing SOMETHING today OTHER than just pretty much nothing.
So tired of this, I really wish there was something more for me, but it sure does seem like this is it.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Valentine's Day Is COMPLETE And Utter Boolsheet
So, while its 1015 or so PST, its after 12 at my home, so, since I'm using the bathroom I figured this was as good a time as any to get in my thoughts about Valentine's Day.
Valentine's Day is complete bullshit.
Heres one reason, I grew up being taught the right thing, that everyone is equal. Men. Women. Black. White. God created us all in his image, so we are all equal.
That being said, why does Valentine's Day have the Aura of it HAS to be a MAN, not the WOMAN who has to do something for the day?
I moved 3000 miles to be with my gf, I have NO JOB cause of this, and no job prospects cause of this... Yet, I'm the one who looks like a fucking scumbag cause my GF isn't getting anything for Valentine's Day because, well, I can't even afford 2 bucks for a card.
Why can't the WOMAN do something and take the lead on Valentine's Day? I've now seen both side of the coin here, which I'll get to, and I don't see why I have to be the bad guy after moving like I did, specifically FOR HER, now that CAUSE of this I have NO MONEY... but I look like the scumbag.
Why is that?
When I worked for the heartless drug chain, I always worked the night before Valentine's Day. Mostly cause 9 of the 11 Vtines Days I was there, I didn't HAVE a gf or a Valentine. I took off only one, which was a trip I than took to see my now ex at school. But, heres what's annoying, watching dudes come in at 3am ON VTines day, buying something cause they FORGOT...
You can't go into a fucking store for 6 weeks previous WITHOUT having it shoved down your fucking throat.
So, what kind of boyfriend are they being when, they are shopping at 3am on Vtines Day and just buying whatever is in the store so they don't look like the scumbag that they are?
See, this is what I mean. Cause I literally can't afford something for my GF, I LOOK like one of those guys, when I'm not.
So, again, my question now is, even if my gf WANTED to pay for Valentine's Day this year, I wouldn't let her since, well, I've had it ALSO ingrained into my head that the MALE is SUPPOSED to take the lead on VTines Day... NOT the female.
So, what than this leaves me with? Yet another Valentines Day that PROVES that Valentine's Day ISN'T and SHOULDN'T be anything special.
Buying shit for your partner on Valentine's Day is like getting drunk on St. Patty's Day or New Years Eve... you do it cause you feel OBLIGATED TOO.... Not cause you WANT TO.
That to me is a load of bullshit. Excuse me, BOOLSHEET
I'm trying to remember anything good thats EVER happened to me on VTine's Day... I remember one year, my Sr. year in HS, I was dating this girl Suzie, who, after we broke up just HATED my guts for some reason... But, what would you have done if your gf, all she EVER did was compare you to her ex-boyfriend? I couldn't deal with it. but anyways, I remember I spent VTine's day with her, I didn't have a car than, so, me and a few of my friends hung out, walked around my town and such, I went into the local food store to get a beverage, and, when I was there, I bought her a box of these Valentine's Heart shaped cakes... She seemed to enjoy it, especially when in HS, you really don't have the money for that sort of thing.
Spent the night at her house I believe with my friend and her friend.
I remember the Valentine's Day I mentioned above, my ex Gf went away to college, and, I spent one year visiting and basically we just hung out in her dorm room for the few days as her roommate had gone home? or somewhere? I don't really remember, and, we had the room to our selves.
The other year I spent with her at school, actually, it's a funny story when you think about it, I booked hotel room cause this year her roommate wasn't going away, anyways, I took her to see Titanic, which I thought was a romantic thing to do, and, I admittedly started to weep at the end, and, my gf at the time laughed at me, not in a menacing manner, but, everyone that was around us was shooting her dirty looks... It was pretty funny than when I noticed it, and, pretty funny now...
The only other Vtine's day that was memorbale to me was, the 1st one when me and my current GF were together, I flew out and surprised her for Vtines day. Spent 5 or 6 days out here, we pretty much just spent 5 days in her bedroom just being together. Seems like the days of doing that are over, as this year, the friday, saturday and sunday previous to Valentine's Day? I spent friday night cooking, saturday, pretty much sleeping while she watched TV with her sister, than we went out to dinner with her sister, spent today... sleeping, than an hour together while we watched the last 50 laps of the daytona bud shootout, and, than I spent the next 8 hours sleeping and watching a movie called Altered, while she spent the rest of the day downstairs watching TV.
as for TOMORROW....
Who knows? She'll be at work, I'll be at home, looking for jobs and such, than prolly cooking dinner. I really don't want to go out again, because, I'll look like the asshole I was describing above when people ask my GF what did your BF get your for VTines Day and shes like nothing.
I think the best part about being single on Vtines Day is that your not olbliged to try and DO anything for anyone, but, all Valentine's Day this year is doing is making me feel like a loser scumbag who shoulnd't have a GF.
So, heres a big THANK YOU to whatever asshole thought an UNPAID holiday like Valentine's Day was a good idea.... Thank you for making me feel like a complete piece of shit, even when I have NO reason too....
Valentine's Day is complete bullshit.
Heres one reason, I grew up being taught the right thing, that everyone is equal. Men. Women. Black. White. God created us all in his image, so we are all equal.
That being said, why does Valentine's Day have the Aura of it HAS to be a MAN, not the WOMAN who has to do something for the day?
I moved 3000 miles to be with my gf, I have NO JOB cause of this, and no job prospects cause of this... Yet, I'm the one who looks like a fucking scumbag cause my GF isn't getting anything for Valentine's Day because, well, I can't even afford 2 bucks for a card.
Why can't the WOMAN do something and take the lead on Valentine's Day? I've now seen both side of the coin here, which I'll get to, and I don't see why I have to be the bad guy after moving like I did, specifically FOR HER, now that CAUSE of this I have NO MONEY... but I look like the scumbag.
Why is that?
When I worked for the heartless drug chain, I always worked the night before Valentine's Day. Mostly cause 9 of the 11 Vtines Days I was there, I didn't HAVE a gf or a Valentine. I took off only one, which was a trip I than took to see my now ex at school. But, heres what's annoying, watching dudes come in at 3am ON VTines day, buying something cause they FORGOT...
You can't go into a fucking store for 6 weeks previous WITHOUT having it shoved down your fucking throat.
So, what kind of boyfriend are they being when, they are shopping at 3am on Vtines Day and just buying whatever is in the store so they don't look like the scumbag that they are?
See, this is what I mean. Cause I literally can't afford something for my GF, I LOOK like one of those guys, when I'm not.
So, again, my question now is, even if my gf WANTED to pay for Valentine's Day this year, I wouldn't let her since, well, I've had it ALSO ingrained into my head that the MALE is SUPPOSED to take the lead on VTines Day... NOT the female.
So, what than this leaves me with? Yet another Valentines Day that PROVES that Valentine's Day ISN'T and SHOULDN'T be anything special.
Buying shit for your partner on Valentine's Day is like getting drunk on St. Patty's Day or New Years Eve... you do it cause you feel OBLIGATED TOO.... Not cause you WANT TO.
That to me is a load of bullshit. Excuse me, BOOLSHEET
I'm trying to remember anything good thats EVER happened to me on VTine's Day... I remember one year, my Sr. year in HS, I was dating this girl Suzie, who, after we broke up just HATED my guts for some reason... But, what would you have done if your gf, all she EVER did was compare you to her ex-boyfriend? I couldn't deal with it. but anyways, I remember I spent VTine's day with her, I didn't have a car than, so, me and a few of my friends hung out, walked around my town and such, I went into the local food store to get a beverage, and, when I was there, I bought her a box of these Valentine's Heart shaped cakes... She seemed to enjoy it, especially when in HS, you really don't have the money for that sort of thing.
Spent the night at her house I believe with my friend and her friend.
I remember the Valentine's Day I mentioned above, my ex Gf went away to college, and, I spent one year visiting and basically we just hung out in her dorm room for the few days as her roommate had gone home? or somewhere? I don't really remember, and, we had the room to our selves.
The other year I spent with her at school, actually, it's a funny story when you think about it, I booked hotel room cause this year her roommate wasn't going away, anyways, I took her to see Titanic, which I thought was a romantic thing to do, and, I admittedly started to weep at the end, and, my gf at the time laughed at me, not in a menacing manner, but, everyone that was around us was shooting her dirty looks... It was pretty funny than when I noticed it, and, pretty funny now...
The only other Vtine's day that was memorbale to me was, the 1st one when me and my current GF were together, I flew out and surprised her for Vtines day. Spent 5 or 6 days out here, we pretty much just spent 5 days in her bedroom just being together. Seems like the days of doing that are over, as this year, the friday, saturday and sunday previous to Valentine's Day? I spent friday night cooking, saturday, pretty much sleeping while she watched TV with her sister, than we went out to dinner with her sister, spent today... sleeping, than an hour together while we watched the last 50 laps of the daytona bud shootout, and, than I spent the next 8 hours sleeping and watching a movie called Altered, while she spent the rest of the day downstairs watching TV.
as for TOMORROW....
Who knows? She'll be at work, I'll be at home, looking for jobs and such, than prolly cooking dinner. I really don't want to go out again, because, I'll look like the asshole I was describing above when people ask my GF what did your BF get your for VTines Day and shes like nothing.
I think the best part about being single on Vtines Day is that your not olbliged to try and DO anything for anyone, but, all Valentine's Day this year is doing is making me feel like a loser scumbag who shoulnd't have a GF.
So, heres a big THANK YOU to whatever asshole thought an UNPAID holiday like Valentine's Day was a good idea.... Thank you for making me feel like a complete piece of shit, even when I have NO reason too....
Race And Snacks Were Good
Race was good. Looking forward to next weeks Daytona 500 and, to the Nationwide Series Race now that the Cup series guys can't get points.
Snacks were good. Finished up the tacos from the other night, had some chips, some Diet Dr. K since I'm getting MAD FAT, good 2 hours or so.
Anyways, back upstairs watching Invasion of The Body Snatchers (56) by myself. My gf and her sister are downstairs watching Criminal Minds. I have no clue what that show is about, but, while I was cleaning up the kitched, I found myself reciting "Criminal Mintz". I wish I had the drive, I would make a video and upload it to youtube of Mints trying to find ways to be Criminal. Seems like it would be funny watching a Andes' Mint arguing with a Starlight mint about what their next bank job should be, and than a Girl Scout Thin Mint cookie comes in and bitch slaps them both....
But yeah, I can't be doing something productive like that, I've got fatting around to do.
Snacks were good. Finished up the tacos from the other night, had some chips, some Diet Dr. K since I'm getting MAD FAT, good 2 hours or so.
Anyways, back upstairs watching Invasion of The Body Snatchers (56) by myself. My gf and her sister are downstairs watching Criminal Minds. I have no clue what that show is about, but, while I was cleaning up the kitched, I found myself reciting "Criminal Mintz". I wish I had the drive, I would make a video and upload it to youtube of Mints trying to find ways to be Criminal. Seems like it would be funny watching a Andes' Mint arguing with a Starlight mint about what their next bank job should be, and than a Girl Scout Thin Mint cookie comes in and bitch slaps them both....
But yeah, I can't be doing something productive like that, I've got fatting around to do.
Mad Fucking Deuces On Your Ugly Face
Again, today, not much going on. Woke up at 1pm. Started watching the Bud Shootout. I'm not really too into sports, but I love watching NASCAR, and, watching NASCAR VIA DVR is perfect since not only can you skip commercials, you can fast forward thru caution periods. I prolly wouldn't do this if NASCAR was like it was 15-20 years ago, but, NASCAR throws so many "DEBRIT" cautions, so people can catch up, usually its when fan favorties ar running far back or about to go a lap down, for example, everytime Dale Jr is about to go a lap down, or he gets to running in the Top 5, NASCAR throws a caution for him... So, if NASCAR didn't throw PHANTOM Debrit cautions, I'd prolly listen to the commentary, but, NASCAR throws SHIT LOAD of them.
But yeah, thats how my Valentine's Day eve is going. Slept till 1pm, got up, my GF was still sleeping, headed downstairs with Holly in tow to watch some NASCAR, came up for some redvines a while ago, my GF is now reading.
Prolly hit up the fridge for some leftovers after I'm done in here. Need some snacks for tthe race.
It's gonna be a long season tho, I'm used to watching the races with my dad. In this busy responibility filled world, watching the race with my dad was really the only time I got to spend with him during the week. We would do the lawn on saturday's but thats not downtime/talk time.
The 1st segment of the race is almost over and, it really DOES feel like something is missing.
I miss my mom and dad being out here. It's amazing how spending a few hours a week with them doing something like watching the race was THAT much more awesome than I knew it was.
Anyways, snacks and race!!! At least maybe Holly TheDawg will come watch it with me!!!
But yeah, thats how my Valentine's Day eve is going. Slept till 1pm, got up, my GF was still sleeping, headed downstairs with Holly in tow to watch some NASCAR, came up for some redvines a while ago, my GF is now reading.
Prolly hit up the fridge for some leftovers after I'm done in here. Need some snacks for tthe race.
It's gonna be a long season tho, I'm used to watching the races with my dad. In this busy responibility filled world, watching the race with my dad was really the only time I got to spend with him during the week. We would do the lawn on saturday's but thats not downtime/talk time.
The 1st segment of the race is almost over and, it really DOES feel like something is missing.
I miss my mom and dad being out here. It's amazing how spending a few hours a week with them doing something like watching the race was THAT much more awesome than I knew it was.
Anyways, snacks and race!!! At least maybe Holly TheDawg will come watch it with me!!!
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Not Too Much Going On...
Inside my head right now, kinda blank today.
I AM getting better at making Pizza and Pizza Rolls. There was a mini empanda/pierogi maker in the house, so i tried using that to make my pizza rolls. First batch I made the dough too thin and some of them burst out through the pocket.
The second batch came out better, left the dough a little thicker, but, because I'll assume I put to muuch filling in, it didn't explode OUT, but the back side that clamps down kinda opened, like a Venus Fly Trap. All but one had the stuff still inside, but, I did kinda like how they opened a bit from the krinkled/seam side for the simple fact it cooled them down a little faster, and you could eat them sooner... and when you get someone whose fat like me, the faster you can shove the food down your gob the better.
Oh, I thought of something I wanted to rant about... I guess I'll save the VTines Day observation till later, tomorrow, or even Monday...
Ok, well, I'm gonna go back to sleep for a little while now. Went to bed late, still tired, plus its Saturday, and, while you would think I'd be doing something TODAY since MONDAY is Valentine's Day and my GF is working, and, you know, tomorrow can't really stay out late since Monday is a work day, there is nothing planned. Well, nothing planned that involves me and my gf getting to relax together.
Not that I can afford anything, but you would've thought maybe just spending a quiet day ALONE would be something, even if I can't afford to do ANYTHING, but, nope.Oh well. Theres always next year.
I AM getting better at making Pizza and Pizza Rolls. There was a mini empanda/pierogi maker in the house, so i tried using that to make my pizza rolls. First batch I made the dough too thin and some of them burst out through the pocket.
The second batch came out better, left the dough a little thicker, but, because I'll assume I put to muuch filling in, it didn't explode OUT, but the back side that clamps down kinda opened, like a Venus Fly Trap. All but one had the stuff still inside, but, I did kinda like how they opened a bit from the krinkled/seam side for the simple fact it cooled them down a little faster, and you could eat them sooner... and when you get someone whose fat like me, the faster you can shove the food down your gob the better.
Oh, I thought of something I wanted to rant about... I guess I'll save the VTines Day observation till later, tomorrow, or even Monday...
Ok, well, I'm gonna go back to sleep for a little while now. Went to bed late, still tired, plus its Saturday, and, while you would think I'd be doing something TODAY since MONDAY is Valentine's Day and my GF is working, and, you know, tomorrow can't really stay out late since Monday is a work day, there is nothing planned. Well, nothing planned that involves me and my gf getting to relax together.
Not that I can afford anything, but you would've thought maybe just spending a quiet day ALONE would be something, even if I can't afford to do ANYTHING, but, nope.Oh well. Theres always next year.
Friday, February 11, 2011
So, This Is What I Get...
For looking forward to something.
Followed the directions off the Jeopardy website yesterday EXACTLY. I had previously registered like it suggested last week.
I proceeded to try and Login at 730pm like it suggested... but try and login no later than 15-20 minutes BEFORE the test...
Nothing happened.
Tried for 20 minutes.
Nothing.
Decided maybe it was my gf's laptop, so I decided to DL Firefox onto it...
Nothing.
7 minutes to go, I go downstairs and ask her sister to see about trying to get it on HER laptop while now my GF and I were trying to get it on hers....
Nothing.
8 O'clock came and went....
I didn't even get the CHANCE to fail.
This is what I get for being positive and optimistic and looking forward to something. Now honestly, I don't feel like doing ANYTHING.
Currently, well, not CURRENTLY, obviously, I'm floating around the net playing games on facebook, watching a movie called Mysterious Island (Cut me a break, Kyle McLachlen is in it), pretty much just being fed up with everything.
It's such bullshit. Everything.
I'm tired of looking forward to something to NOT have it happen... I've been out here the better part now of THREE MONTHS, and have gotten to do ONE THING I've wanted to. Now, doing "THINGS" of course takes MONEY, but, I have ONLY wanted to do ONE THING that cost any money in 3 months, go to that race at Toyota Speedway, which I didn't get to do. I've been talking about driving to the town at the top of Mt. Baldy, just, as a cool place to drive too... haven't done that. I added wanting to go mail letters from Twin Peaks, as that is close TOO... haven't gotten to do THAT...
I'm pretty much at the point where I'm fucking fed up and REALLY don't want to DO anything anymore. Other than sleep, watch TV, and write while I'm leaving a shit. I was psyching myself up all day yesterday for that test, so I didn't look for any jobs. I had conceded weds cause I woke up late, now today, I have no drive to even begin looking for anymore jobs, cause, well, I'be been doing that for 2 months and 3 weeks now (I relaxed and was sick the 1st full week I was here) and N O T H I N G is happening on that front. I'm tired of spending 3-4 hours a day looking and applying for jobs its CLEAR I'm NEVER going to get.
Like seriously, what's the point of it all? I've been positive for the better part of 3 months being out here, its getting me NO WHERE... maybe being pessimistic and a huge whiney BITCH might get me somewhere. I think I may try that out for the next 3 months.
Anyways, oh, yay, the weekend. What fun... another weekend of NOT getting to do ANYTHING I want to do, which, that first bit was sarcastic, but, honestly, I don't give a shit anymore. What sucks about this weekend is its Valentines Day, and I don't have ANY MONEY yet AGAIN to buy my gf even a CARD for the holiday, so how much of an asshole does THIS make me look like? To anyone that KNOWS the situation, oh wait, thats right, I'm STILL an asshole anyways, but, to anyone that DOESN'T know the situation, I get to be bad mouthed and my gf I'm SURE is being told, "you can do WAY better than that", and maybe thats the truth, maybe upheaving my life and moving 3000 miles ISN'T enough... for some it SURE doesn't feel like it is... but whatever, who cares anymore... I'm done giving a fuck about things for at least today. I earned the right to be a miserable fuck after dealing with the bullshit I have the last 3 months with NOTHING coming to me cause I HAVE been optimistic.
But yeah, I was thinking about an old friend of mine named Jim before. I have him on my facebook, so, we do get to interact quite a bit. But growing up, Jim was one of my best friends. I hated my HS, but I had a few groups of friends, my sports type friends, my band/smart type friends, and, my friends with people like Jim, who, people always looked at cockeyed. Jim loved this tho LOL... he reveled in being a "freak", even if the truth of the matter was, if anyone took 2 minutes to actually TALK to Jim, he was good people. But you know how HS is... people are just concerned with whats on the OUTSIDE and how POPULAR they can be, NOT how someone ACTUALLY is. Jim and I and our group had discussed starting a band at one point. This was my 1st foray into it. Jim and I did jam on a few occasions. One of which I have the tape of somewhere at my old residence, we spent half a day at a studio, it was a blast, Jim went on to play in some bands, cause Jim was REALLY dedicated to being an amazing drummer. He missed a bit of HS cause he actually WAY playing in bands and WAS putting a serious effort into it.
Anyways, when we started discussing this, he was lucky enough to have a 2 car garage in his backyard, and, parents who were cool enough to say, basically let us have it.... with the caveet with cleaned it out. I heard this, and was excited as fuck... what I didn't know was that the garage was LITERALLY packed stupid with stuff.
Flash forward to after we had it cleaned out, admittedly, Jim did most of the cleaning himself, but I did help a good deal with getting furnature in there and moving all the heavy shit out, etc....
But, my HS days, that garage and Jim were 2 of the reasons I CAN look back and actually smile about that time in my life.
We even put down a shitload of plywood in the loft so, we had downstairs for the band, which, than was basically Jim's drumkit and practice area since he was dedicated like I said... brought in some furnature, and, pretty much I spent every NON baseball season day there getting drunk, and, most days AFTER baseball practice there... getting drunk. Good times. lots of friends, lots of fun fun experiences. I have alot of stories about the garage, but, I wanted to tell a story about Jim that always gets me laughing, and, right now a smile and a laugh is REALLY what I'm looking for.
One of our friends in this group was named Tom. Tom was hot and cold. Some days Tom was cool as fuck, other days, he was just a huge self centered asshole, weather anyone else felt the same, I COULD prolly opine on this, but I won't. But, there would be like days where Tom would have no problem letting me ride on the handle bars of his bike as we went 2 towns over to get pizza, but other days, he would just act like he thought he was better than everyone. Anyways, Tom lived across from our HS, literally, and, most days we'd go to his house for lunch and get drunk, or, if we were looking for a different place to chill after school for a bit, we'd go there. As if you didn't guess, most days I was at Jim's. Tom was sketchy, some days he'd come some days he wouldn't. But, during the day, if he had a break, he was at his house. I'd suggest this is why Tom and I got along so well, Tom I think more than I did back then "GOT" the "fuck these assholes, I don't care what anyone thinks" mantra way better than I did. He didn't really associate with anyone too much... So whenever I was off, and knew he was, like I said, I'd be over across the street for 30 minutes or so getting fucked up, cause, well, honestly, the majority of the people I went to HS with, you HAD to be fucked up to deal with there assholeness.
Anyways, one day I see Jim wandering the halls between periods. I didn't get to Jim's before school to get drunk, and, Tom who I had what I believe was English early in the day, I had a few classes with him, wasn't around. I had known they were chilling after school the previous day doing whatever, I couldn't as I don't really rememeber the exact reason, prolly baseball, maybe just doing a report or some shit, IDK, don't hold me to it, so I grabbed Jim coversed with the regular sup pleasentries and such, and than I asked him where Tom was... this is how the conversation went, and this is one of my best memories from my HS time...
"Hey Jim, I need to get a few drinks in me, you seen Tom, he wasn't in class, I know you guys were doing something after school yesterday."
"Yeah, we hit up the pizza place than went back to Tom's afterward to play some genesis and such"
"Cool, what time you head home?"
"well, heres the thing about that. Tom was being a Mr. Browntone dick, and we kinda got into an arguement. We wound up outside somehow, we were outside talking and such, and, decided to start fucking around out there. I wound up throwing a pitchfork thru his foot"
"Wait what? You threw a pitchfork thru his foot? cmon, your bullshitting me dude."
"no. I did. We were fucking around and, I wound up throwing a pitchfork thru his foot"
"wow, thats sad. Kinda sucks that happened"
"Yeah it was sad, and it did suck, cause I was actually aiming for his chest. Anyways, catch you later man"
And with THAT.... Jim took off down the hall towards his next class.
Man, I miss the few really good friends I had in HS. I miss all the people I was friendly with in HS. They really made it bearable. Thank god for people like Jim.
Followed the directions off the Jeopardy website yesterday EXACTLY. I had previously registered like it suggested last week.
I proceeded to try and Login at 730pm like it suggested... but try and login no later than 15-20 minutes BEFORE the test...
Nothing happened.
Tried for 20 minutes.
Nothing.
Decided maybe it was my gf's laptop, so I decided to DL Firefox onto it...
Nothing.
7 minutes to go, I go downstairs and ask her sister to see about trying to get it on HER laptop while now my GF and I were trying to get it on hers....
Nothing.
8 O'clock came and went....
I didn't even get the CHANCE to fail.
This is what I get for being positive and optimistic and looking forward to something. Now honestly, I don't feel like doing ANYTHING.
Currently, well, not CURRENTLY, obviously, I'm floating around the net playing games on facebook, watching a movie called Mysterious Island (Cut me a break, Kyle McLachlen is in it), pretty much just being fed up with everything.
It's such bullshit. Everything.
I'm tired of looking forward to something to NOT have it happen... I've been out here the better part now of THREE MONTHS, and have gotten to do ONE THING I've wanted to. Now, doing "THINGS" of course takes MONEY, but, I have ONLY wanted to do ONE THING that cost any money in 3 months, go to that race at Toyota Speedway, which I didn't get to do. I've been talking about driving to the town at the top of Mt. Baldy, just, as a cool place to drive too... haven't done that. I added wanting to go mail letters from Twin Peaks, as that is close TOO... haven't gotten to do THAT...
I'm pretty much at the point where I'm fucking fed up and REALLY don't want to DO anything anymore. Other than sleep, watch TV, and write while I'm leaving a shit. I was psyching myself up all day yesterday for that test, so I didn't look for any jobs. I had conceded weds cause I woke up late, now today, I have no drive to even begin looking for anymore jobs, cause, well, I'be been doing that for 2 months and 3 weeks now (I relaxed and was sick the 1st full week I was here) and N O T H I N G is happening on that front. I'm tired of spending 3-4 hours a day looking and applying for jobs its CLEAR I'm NEVER going to get.
Like seriously, what's the point of it all? I've been positive for the better part of 3 months being out here, its getting me NO WHERE... maybe being pessimistic and a huge whiney BITCH might get me somewhere. I think I may try that out for the next 3 months.
Anyways, oh, yay, the weekend. What fun... another weekend of NOT getting to do ANYTHING I want to do, which, that first bit was sarcastic, but, honestly, I don't give a shit anymore. What sucks about this weekend is its Valentines Day, and I don't have ANY MONEY yet AGAIN to buy my gf even a CARD for the holiday, so how much of an asshole does THIS make me look like? To anyone that KNOWS the situation, oh wait, thats right, I'm STILL an asshole anyways, but, to anyone that DOESN'T know the situation, I get to be bad mouthed and my gf I'm SURE is being told, "you can do WAY better than that", and maybe thats the truth, maybe upheaving my life and moving 3000 miles ISN'T enough... for some it SURE doesn't feel like it is... but whatever, who cares anymore... I'm done giving a fuck about things for at least today. I earned the right to be a miserable fuck after dealing with the bullshit I have the last 3 months with NOTHING coming to me cause I HAVE been optimistic.
But yeah, I was thinking about an old friend of mine named Jim before. I have him on my facebook, so, we do get to interact quite a bit. But growing up, Jim was one of my best friends. I hated my HS, but I had a few groups of friends, my sports type friends, my band/smart type friends, and, my friends with people like Jim, who, people always looked at cockeyed. Jim loved this tho LOL... he reveled in being a "freak", even if the truth of the matter was, if anyone took 2 minutes to actually TALK to Jim, he was good people. But you know how HS is... people are just concerned with whats on the OUTSIDE and how POPULAR they can be, NOT how someone ACTUALLY is. Jim and I and our group had discussed starting a band at one point. This was my 1st foray into it. Jim and I did jam on a few occasions. One of which I have the tape of somewhere at my old residence, we spent half a day at a studio, it was a blast, Jim went on to play in some bands, cause Jim was REALLY dedicated to being an amazing drummer. He missed a bit of HS cause he actually WAY playing in bands and WAS putting a serious effort into it.
Anyways, when we started discussing this, he was lucky enough to have a 2 car garage in his backyard, and, parents who were cool enough to say, basically let us have it.... with the caveet with cleaned it out. I heard this, and was excited as fuck... what I didn't know was that the garage was LITERALLY packed stupid with stuff.
Flash forward to after we had it cleaned out, admittedly, Jim did most of the cleaning himself, but I did help a good deal with getting furnature in there and moving all the heavy shit out, etc....
But, my HS days, that garage and Jim were 2 of the reasons I CAN look back and actually smile about that time in my life.
We even put down a shitload of plywood in the loft so, we had downstairs for the band, which, than was basically Jim's drumkit and practice area since he was dedicated like I said... brought in some furnature, and, pretty much I spent every NON baseball season day there getting drunk, and, most days AFTER baseball practice there... getting drunk. Good times. lots of friends, lots of fun fun experiences. I have alot of stories about the garage, but, I wanted to tell a story about Jim that always gets me laughing, and, right now a smile and a laugh is REALLY what I'm looking for.
One of our friends in this group was named Tom. Tom was hot and cold. Some days Tom was cool as fuck, other days, he was just a huge self centered asshole, weather anyone else felt the same, I COULD prolly opine on this, but I won't. But, there would be like days where Tom would have no problem letting me ride on the handle bars of his bike as we went 2 towns over to get pizza, but other days, he would just act like he thought he was better than everyone. Anyways, Tom lived across from our HS, literally, and, most days we'd go to his house for lunch and get drunk, or, if we were looking for a different place to chill after school for a bit, we'd go there. As if you didn't guess, most days I was at Jim's. Tom was sketchy, some days he'd come some days he wouldn't. But, during the day, if he had a break, he was at his house. I'd suggest this is why Tom and I got along so well, Tom I think more than I did back then "GOT" the "fuck these assholes, I don't care what anyone thinks" mantra way better than I did. He didn't really associate with anyone too much... So whenever I was off, and knew he was, like I said, I'd be over across the street for 30 minutes or so getting fucked up, cause, well, honestly, the majority of the people I went to HS with, you HAD to be fucked up to deal with there assholeness.
Anyways, one day I see Jim wandering the halls between periods. I didn't get to Jim's before school to get drunk, and, Tom who I had what I believe was English early in the day, I had a few classes with him, wasn't around. I had known they were chilling after school the previous day doing whatever, I couldn't as I don't really rememeber the exact reason, prolly baseball, maybe just doing a report or some shit, IDK, don't hold me to it, so I grabbed Jim coversed with the regular sup pleasentries and such, and than I asked him where Tom was... this is how the conversation went, and this is one of my best memories from my HS time...
"Hey Jim, I need to get a few drinks in me, you seen Tom, he wasn't in class, I know you guys were doing something after school yesterday."
"Yeah, we hit up the pizza place than went back to Tom's afterward to play some genesis and such"
"Cool, what time you head home?"
"well, heres the thing about that. Tom was being a Mr. Browntone dick, and we kinda got into an arguement. We wound up outside somehow, we were outside talking and such, and, decided to start fucking around out there. I wound up throwing a pitchfork thru his foot"
"Wait what? You threw a pitchfork thru his foot? cmon, your bullshitting me dude."
"no. I did. We were fucking around and, I wound up throwing a pitchfork thru his foot"
"wow, thats sad. Kinda sucks that happened"
"Yeah it was sad, and it did suck, cause I was actually aiming for his chest. Anyways, catch you later man"
And with THAT.... Jim took off down the hall towards his next class.
Man, I miss the few really good friends I had in HS. I miss all the people I was friendly with in HS. They really made it bearable. Thank god for people like Jim.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
THIS... IS... JEOPARDY!!!!
Well, not RIGHT NOW... but tonight. It will be interesting to see what kind of questions are on that prelimenary test later. One of the things I'm interested about that, I'll never get an answer for, is, I wonder if its the same 50 questions for everyone thats doing it, or, its like the S.A.T.'s where they have a few different tests, or even to the extreme that each test is unique, even in that they have the same questions but in a different order, IE Question #1 for me might be someone elses Question #27.
Should be interesting. I'll make sure I write about it in the 1st entry afterwards since I'm SURE people are waiting with baited breath. Still kinda sucks that they don't tell you your results after the test is over, I would've liked to have had a definitive result as opposed to, well, I THINK I got THIS MANY out of 50 right....
I don't really think I will get a good enough score to get to the 2nd bit, which is being invited in to take a second 50 question test in person, but, my gf and her sister were saying that I should do it, and, to Jeopardy's credit, the prelimenary test, the make it easy for people like me who are concerned about weather or not they would be embarrased if they got on TV. Honestly, if you can pass the multitude of tests they have set up to actually GET to the point that your on an episode, honestly, I looked at the people who look stupid on that show differently now.
I almost WANT to get on there.... so they can be like.... An Unemployed Man from the Inland Empire who mooches off his GF and her sister.... than go on to be like.... and heres bill, a rocket scientist with a doctorate from MIT... and heres sally, she holds 2 masters is anthropology and works at the Smithsonian....
Pretty entertaining eh?!?!?!
So let me pass on a story, I seem to have forgotten that aspect of this venture, you know, writing in this Blog... while I'm... "Blogging?" Mainly I feel like I've been a whiney bitch lately, but, I guess you write what you know LOL.
Back in High School it's fair to say that I was a very good baseball player. My dad to this day seems to think if I made the effort to actually you know, go to college, I could've played in the majors. Personally, I feel I was exceptional, but, the majors? HIGHLY doubtful. Thinking of people who played in the Majors when I would've, I don't think I would've had the balls to get in a batters box against the likes of Randy Johnson or Mitch Williams, you know, people who had little or not control over 100+ MPH baseballs being thrown near my face. Not that I was scared to be hit mind you, but, I don't see myself in front of 60k people trying to get a hit off the big unit. That being said, after HS, I did play Semi-Pro ball for 4 years. I played in leagues that weren't scouted or whatever, I say Semi-Pro, cause, they weren't weekend warrior type leagues, but NOT "professional"... And in these leagues I played with some people, please don't ask me to name names, cause, honestly, I don't remember, and none of these people went on to be anything of note ANYWAYS, but, I played with some people who were either playing, played, or on their way to playing professional minor league baseball. Like I said, none of these people never MADE anything of themselves, IE... OH I played against Derek Jeter when no one knew whom he was.... But, I still played with people who wound up getting paid money to play baseball, and I feel I held my own very well.
Now, after getting off on that tangent, which, why its germaine to whatever IDK, but, back in HS, I played baseball. My Sr. year, I had the least amount of classes I could POSSIBLY take. This day and age, you can't do shit in HS like drop subjects, back when I was in HS, after you took your 2 years of Math and Science, you weren't REQUIRED to take them... So, my Sr year, I dropped Math and Science, and, the 2nd half of the school year, I was going in for third period, and didn't have a 9th... but since baseball was on, getting to leave school at 2pm or so wasn't that cool of a thing cause, I had practice at 330 everyday. After baseball ended was prolly some of the best days of HS for me... I was getting to school for 945 and leaving at 2. I hated my HS... not so much the HS Era TIMES, but, I HATED my HS. It was filled with fucking assholes and douchebags mostly. Did my best to just blend in and only talk to my friends, because watching people and how they acted always made me sick... heres a side story....
This guy named Tim who was a year older than me in my HS, was BMOC, you know, Big Man On Campus. Sports hero. Real cocky arrogant, A-typical "jock" you hear about in those movies. Like Peter Facinelli in Can't Hardly Wait is the one example on the top of my head. Anyways, you know the type, real bully... there is a scene in the TV Show Freaks and Geeks where the A/V teachers explains how the a-typical HS jock "PEAKS" in HS... he goes to college where hes a failure... he graduates... hes a failure... than hes pumping your gas while your rich.... back to this story, Tim was ALL THAT and more. NO ONE really liked Tim, and, whats funny, I went to a TINY HS, Tim was mediocre at everything he did. IE he was TRYING to be the "Super jock" he thought he was but, what he didn't know was how EVERYONE in school didn't think he was a loser, but KNEW he was a loser. I know when I played baseball with my my Jr year, when he was a Sr, EVERYONE on the team laughed at him behind his back, cause he thought he was superman, but his .210 batting average and the fact he made an EXTREME amount of errors told the REAL story.... When I inquired about this, all I ever got was... well, you don't PLAY football, your in the band, so, you watch the 1st half of every home football game, Tim is a joke, everyone knows it, and if you watched the games, you would too... Same with my friends who played basketball, my grade had some great basketball players, guys good enough to play and excell in college, but the best player in the school was a grade below us, this gay kid Dave, and, I happened to be friends with one of the guys in my grade who was excellent, we used to play one on one, my friend Rob used to beat me like 100-5, which isn't saying much since, well, I SUCKED at basketball LOL... but he always used to talk about during my jr year when we'd hang out that if Tim didn't SUCK, and passed the ball instead of missing pretty much every shot he took, they would've done better than they had....
So, you get the correlation here... Tim's World vs Reality.
SO, back to Tim. Tim was the a-typical example of a HS Jock, but, one who wasn't ACTUALLY skilled at sports. Now, what makes Tim WAY more pathetic than OTHER HS jocks? He NEVER LEFT my HS. When I say this, I LITERALLY mean, my HS was 7-12th grades, so from the time Tim was in 7th grade (age 12?) till THIS DAY... he hasn't gone ONE DAY without being at the HS i graduated from. Tim is now 37. thats 25 YEARS living his "HIGH SCHOOL" Glory... why? cause he would be a FAILURE if he actually had to go away from my small little home town.
Now, I know what your saying... huh? How could Tim do this??!?!?
Let me explain.
When I was a Jr. and Tim was a Sr, Tim's Girlfriend was a SOPHOMORE. Nice girl actually, she was a bit slutty, she kinda would fuck anyone, but, regardless, she was a REAL nice girl. Tim treated her like you would expect a BMOC to treat her. I had her in one of my classes, and I used to over hear her telling her friend who sat behind me about how much of a dick Tim was and how badly Tim treated her. I didn't "Get" why she stayed with him if he was a dick till WAY later in life.... Anyways, Tim was a Sr dating a Soph. Tim proceeded to graduate. Tim, if you haven't figured this out yet, stayed LOCAL for college. So, my SR year, Tim's Freshman year in college, his GF's now JR year in HS, Tim was at my HS everyday to pick up his gf. I graduated, but still had some very good friends, that I'm still friends with to this day, still in the HS. I didn't see them as much as you would imagine after I graduated since I was going to college now. I stayed local cause, honestly, I had NO intention to even GO to college, but, I went to appease my mom and dad, in hindsight, and I always tell my mom and dad this, I WISH I would've TRIED, cause, in HS i NEVER got higher than a 67 in English, my 1st year in college, I had an AWESOME teacher, and wound up with an A... after THAT I was CONVINCED that it wasn't ME who was stupid, but just that the teachers were HORRIBLE... I shouldv'e realized that during my Jr year when my english teacher spent the FULL YEAR doing "Hamlet"... anyways, back to Tim... I still had friends, I'd run into them everyonce in a while when I was out and a bout, and one day I proceeded to inquire, in a joking manner weather or not Tim was STILL dating his GF and if he was at the HS everyday picking her up....
What do you think my response was?
In a serious manner...."How did you know?"
I laughed and was like, well, what's Tim gonna do NEXT YEAR, shes a Sr now, and, he MIGHT actually have to face the fact hes a fucking loser at college, he went from being "Super jock" to NOT playing any sports in college, cause, well, he DID actually suck, he MIGHT actually have to face the fact he can't be the BMOC at a HS forever.
So, years went by, I went about my life, I moved out of my small town for 3 years, to which was AWESOME, didn't really see too many people around. Started working for the heartless drug chain, to which I started seeing a bunch of people I went to HS with... at this point, you would think I was embaressed about working a shitty job and seeing these people... normally I'd say you were right, but what I had going for me? I looked COMPLETELY different... shaved head, goatee... people who I went to HS with would come in and ask...Don't I know you? Didn't we go to JS together? To which Id'd reply, no, I'm not from around here, and would say I went to the HS and lived in the area my than GF did... The only people who KNEW me, even tho I looked 100% different, are people I realized later were ACTUALLY my friends..... So, people that recognized me, we'd chat for a few minutes while I checked them out, or, I'd take a few minutes and helped them shop. It was nice.
One day I had it in my head to ask about Tim..... It turns out that when his GF graduated, sometime AFTER the prom, and, BEFORE the start of the NEXT school semester, Tim broke up with his NOW GRADUATED GF.... and started dating... a girl from our HS that was starting her JUNIOR YEAR... So Tim, now a Junior at a local college... was dating a Junior in HS.... and wouldn't you know it? Tim would go back to the HS EVERYDAY to pick her up....
Tim proceeded to date her while they were both juinors in HS and college respectivly, than when they were SENIORS in college and HS RESPECTIVLY.....but NOW.... what was Tim to do... his current GF was graduating... Tim was SHIT out of luck trying to find yet ANOTHER girl at the HS to date because, well, being 22 now, and, HIS juniors being 15-16... that would almost make Tim look like a Pedo....
So, what does Tim proceed to do?
Oh yes... applying for, and GETTING a teaching position at the HS... This I found out because we wound up hiring a kid who went to my HS but was WAY younger than me... He told me MANY stories about Tim, and said, he was a huge asshole who did things like... put on pads in football practice, YES, Tim NOT ONLY was TEACHING AT THE HS, BUT Tim was COACHING SPORTS.... but he'd put on PADS... and PLAY and SCRIMMAGE with the HS students in practice... Tim, in his mid twenties, running around in FULL PADS, playing Football with the HS kids during practice....
But I heard many stories like this about Tim from this kid I worked with, and, was honestly amazed that Tim proceeded to NEVER be able to let go of HS and being the BMOC.... how pathetic is a person who does that?
tim to THIS DAY, still works at the HS. Prolly not realizing that even the kids there NOW think hes as big a fucking joke as the people who WENT to high school with him 20-25 years prior....
The sadest part of this story tho is, Tim married that 2nd girl, has kids with her. I wonder if she ever realized how she was used to get Tim those 2 years of glory.... whats even SADDER... Tim was allowed to reproduce. Tim was a fucking scumbag NO ONE liked. It's amazing to me that someone can be SO BLIND to the truth, and someone can be SO PATHETIC that at 37 they are STILL trying (and succeding) in living up their days gone by.
This kinda went on and on, and I didn't get to tell my story about chucking up a full box of Mac and Cheese under the gym bleechers one day during indoor baseball practice... But its important to share stories about people like Tim... WHY?
Cause people like me in HS weren't INFORMED of how pathetic people like Tim are. Maybe the smart kids KNEW, maybe the outsider kids KNEW... but I didn't know that people like Tim, their life PEAKS in HS... and they proceed to do WHATEVER THEY CAN the rest of their lives to spend each and everyday TRYING their best to RELIVE those days... Tim found a way to do it. And that to ME is way more pathetic than the HS Jock who DOES get that moment in life where he realizes hes pathetic, u know, that day where their pumping the gas into a nerd they beat up in HS's Rolls Royce.... They "GET" how pathetic they and their existance is. Tim will NEVER "GET" that, and, thats just sad....
Anyways, off to walk Holly LOL...
Should be interesting. I'll make sure I write about it in the 1st entry afterwards since I'm SURE people are waiting with baited breath. Still kinda sucks that they don't tell you your results after the test is over, I would've liked to have had a definitive result as opposed to, well, I THINK I got THIS MANY out of 50 right....
I don't really think I will get a good enough score to get to the 2nd bit, which is being invited in to take a second 50 question test in person, but, my gf and her sister were saying that I should do it, and, to Jeopardy's credit, the prelimenary test, the make it easy for people like me who are concerned about weather or not they would be embarrased if they got on TV. Honestly, if you can pass the multitude of tests they have set up to actually GET to the point that your on an episode, honestly, I looked at the people who look stupid on that show differently now.
I almost WANT to get on there.... so they can be like.... An Unemployed Man from the Inland Empire who mooches off his GF and her sister.... than go on to be like.... and heres bill, a rocket scientist with a doctorate from MIT... and heres sally, she holds 2 masters is anthropology and works at the Smithsonian....
Pretty entertaining eh?!?!?!
So let me pass on a story, I seem to have forgotten that aspect of this venture, you know, writing in this Blog... while I'm... "Blogging?" Mainly I feel like I've been a whiney bitch lately, but, I guess you write what you know LOL.
Back in High School it's fair to say that I was a very good baseball player. My dad to this day seems to think if I made the effort to actually you know, go to college, I could've played in the majors. Personally, I feel I was exceptional, but, the majors? HIGHLY doubtful. Thinking of people who played in the Majors when I would've, I don't think I would've had the balls to get in a batters box against the likes of Randy Johnson or Mitch Williams, you know, people who had little or not control over 100+ MPH baseballs being thrown near my face. Not that I was scared to be hit mind you, but, I don't see myself in front of 60k people trying to get a hit off the big unit. That being said, after HS, I did play Semi-Pro ball for 4 years. I played in leagues that weren't scouted or whatever, I say Semi-Pro, cause, they weren't weekend warrior type leagues, but NOT "professional"... And in these leagues I played with some people, please don't ask me to name names, cause, honestly, I don't remember, and none of these people went on to be anything of note ANYWAYS, but, I played with some people who were either playing, played, or on their way to playing professional minor league baseball. Like I said, none of these people never MADE anything of themselves, IE... OH I played against Derek Jeter when no one knew whom he was.... But, I still played with people who wound up getting paid money to play baseball, and I feel I held my own very well.
Now, after getting off on that tangent, which, why its germaine to whatever IDK, but, back in HS, I played baseball. My Sr. year, I had the least amount of classes I could POSSIBLY take. This day and age, you can't do shit in HS like drop subjects, back when I was in HS, after you took your 2 years of Math and Science, you weren't REQUIRED to take them... So, my Sr year, I dropped Math and Science, and, the 2nd half of the school year, I was going in for third period, and didn't have a 9th... but since baseball was on, getting to leave school at 2pm or so wasn't that cool of a thing cause, I had practice at 330 everyday. After baseball ended was prolly some of the best days of HS for me... I was getting to school for 945 and leaving at 2. I hated my HS... not so much the HS Era TIMES, but, I HATED my HS. It was filled with fucking assholes and douchebags mostly. Did my best to just blend in and only talk to my friends, because watching people and how they acted always made me sick... heres a side story....
This guy named Tim who was a year older than me in my HS, was BMOC, you know, Big Man On Campus. Sports hero. Real cocky arrogant, A-typical "jock" you hear about in those movies. Like Peter Facinelli in Can't Hardly Wait is the one example on the top of my head. Anyways, you know the type, real bully... there is a scene in the TV Show Freaks and Geeks where the A/V teachers explains how the a-typical HS jock "PEAKS" in HS... he goes to college where hes a failure... he graduates... hes a failure... than hes pumping your gas while your rich.... back to this story, Tim was ALL THAT and more. NO ONE really liked Tim, and, whats funny, I went to a TINY HS, Tim was mediocre at everything he did. IE he was TRYING to be the "Super jock" he thought he was but, what he didn't know was how EVERYONE in school didn't think he was a loser, but KNEW he was a loser. I know when I played baseball with my my Jr year, when he was a Sr, EVERYONE on the team laughed at him behind his back, cause he thought he was superman, but his .210 batting average and the fact he made an EXTREME amount of errors told the REAL story.... When I inquired about this, all I ever got was... well, you don't PLAY football, your in the band, so, you watch the 1st half of every home football game, Tim is a joke, everyone knows it, and if you watched the games, you would too... Same with my friends who played basketball, my grade had some great basketball players, guys good enough to play and excell in college, but the best player in the school was a grade below us, this gay kid Dave, and, I happened to be friends with one of the guys in my grade who was excellent, we used to play one on one, my friend Rob used to beat me like 100-5, which isn't saying much since, well, I SUCKED at basketball LOL... but he always used to talk about during my jr year when we'd hang out that if Tim didn't SUCK, and passed the ball instead of missing pretty much every shot he took, they would've done better than they had....
So, you get the correlation here... Tim's World vs Reality.
SO, back to Tim. Tim was the a-typical example of a HS Jock, but, one who wasn't ACTUALLY skilled at sports. Now, what makes Tim WAY more pathetic than OTHER HS jocks? He NEVER LEFT my HS. When I say this, I LITERALLY mean, my HS was 7-12th grades, so from the time Tim was in 7th grade (age 12?) till THIS DAY... he hasn't gone ONE DAY without being at the HS i graduated from. Tim is now 37. thats 25 YEARS living his "HIGH SCHOOL" Glory... why? cause he would be a FAILURE if he actually had to go away from my small little home town.
Now, I know what your saying... huh? How could Tim do this??!?!?
Let me explain.
When I was a Jr. and Tim was a Sr, Tim's Girlfriend was a SOPHOMORE. Nice girl actually, she was a bit slutty, she kinda would fuck anyone, but, regardless, she was a REAL nice girl. Tim treated her like you would expect a BMOC to treat her. I had her in one of my classes, and I used to over hear her telling her friend who sat behind me about how much of a dick Tim was and how badly Tim treated her. I didn't "Get" why she stayed with him if he was a dick till WAY later in life.... Anyways, Tim was a Sr dating a Soph. Tim proceeded to graduate. Tim, if you haven't figured this out yet, stayed LOCAL for college. So, my SR year, Tim's Freshman year in college, his GF's now JR year in HS, Tim was at my HS everyday to pick up his gf. I graduated, but still had some very good friends, that I'm still friends with to this day, still in the HS. I didn't see them as much as you would imagine after I graduated since I was going to college now. I stayed local cause, honestly, I had NO intention to even GO to college, but, I went to appease my mom and dad, in hindsight, and I always tell my mom and dad this, I WISH I would've TRIED, cause, in HS i NEVER got higher than a 67 in English, my 1st year in college, I had an AWESOME teacher, and wound up with an A... after THAT I was CONVINCED that it wasn't ME who was stupid, but just that the teachers were HORRIBLE... I shouldv'e realized that during my Jr year when my english teacher spent the FULL YEAR doing "Hamlet"... anyways, back to Tim... I still had friends, I'd run into them everyonce in a while when I was out and a bout, and one day I proceeded to inquire, in a joking manner weather or not Tim was STILL dating his GF and if he was at the HS everyday picking her up....
What do you think my response was?
In a serious manner...."How did you know?"
I laughed and was like, well, what's Tim gonna do NEXT YEAR, shes a Sr now, and, he MIGHT actually have to face the fact hes a fucking loser at college, he went from being "Super jock" to NOT playing any sports in college, cause, well, he DID actually suck, he MIGHT actually have to face the fact he can't be the BMOC at a HS forever.
So, years went by, I went about my life, I moved out of my small town for 3 years, to which was AWESOME, didn't really see too many people around. Started working for the heartless drug chain, to which I started seeing a bunch of people I went to HS with... at this point, you would think I was embaressed about working a shitty job and seeing these people... normally I'd say you were right, but what I had going for me? I looked COMPLETELY different... shaved head, goatee... people who I went to HS with would come in and ask...Don't I know you? Didn't we go to JS together? To which Id'd reply, no, I'm not from around here, and would say I went to the HS and lived in the area my than GF did... The only people who KNEW me, even tho I looked 100% different, are people I realized later were ACTUALLY my friends..... So, people that recognized me, we'd chat for a few minutes while I checked them out, or, I'd take a few minutes and helped them shop. It was nice.
One day I had it in my head to ask about Tim..... It turns out that when his GF graduated, sometime AFTER the prom, and, BEFORE the start of the NEXT school semester, Tim broke up with his NOW GRADUATED GF.... and started dating... a girl from our HS that was starting her JUNIOR YEAR... So Tim, now a Junior at a local college... was dating a Junior in HS.... and wouldn't you know it? Tim would go back to the HS EVERYDAY to pick her up....
Tim proceeded to date her while they were both juinors in HS and college respectivly, than when they were SENIORS in college and HS RESPECTIVLY.....but NOW.... what was Tim to do... his current GF was graduating... Tim was SHIT out of luck trying to find yet ANOTHER girl at the HS to date because, well, being 22 now, and, HIS juniors being 15-16... that would almost make Tim look like a Pedo....
So, what does Tim proceed to do?
Oh yes... applying for, and GETTING a teaching position at the HS... This I found out because we wound up hiring a kid who went to my HS but was WAY younger than me... He told me MANY stories about Tim, and said, he was a huge asshole who did things like... put on pads in football practice, YES, Tim NOT ONLY was TEACHING AT THE HS, BUT Tim was COACHING SPORTS.... but he'd put on PADS... and PLAY and SCRIMMAGE with the HS students in practice... Tim, in his mid twenties, running around in FULL PADS, playing Football with the HS kids during practice....
But I heard many stories like this about Tim from this kid I worked with, and, was honestly amazed that Tim proceeded to NEVER be able to let go of HS and being the BMOC.... how pathetic is a person who does that?
tim to THIS DAY, still works at the HS. Prolly not realizing that even the kids there NOW think hes as big a fucking joke as the people who WENT to high school with him 20-25 years prior....
The sadest part of this story tho is, Tim married that 2nd girl, has kids with her. I wonder if she ever realized how she was used to get Tim those 2 years of glory.... whats even SADDER... Tim was allowed to reproduce. Tim was a fucking scumbag NO ONE liked. It's amazing to me that someone can be SO BLIND to the truth, and someone can be SO PATHETIC that at 37 they are STILL trying (and succeding) in living up their days gone by.
This kinda went on and on, and I didn't get to tell my story about chucking up a full box of Mac and Cheese under the gym bleechers one day during indoor baseball practice... But its important to share stories about people like Tim... WHY?
Cause people like me in HS weren't INFORMED of how pathetic people like Tim are. Maybe the smart kids KNEW, maybe the outsider kids KNEW... but I didn't know that people like Tim, their life PEAKS in HS... and they proceed to do WHATEVER THEY CAN the rest of their lives to spend each and everyday TRYING their best to RELIVE those days... Tim found a way to do it. And that to ME is way more pathetic than the HS Jock who DOES get that moment in life where he realizes hes pathetic, u know, that day where their pumping the gas into a nerd they beat up in HS's Rolls Royce.... They "GET" how pathetic they and their existance is. Tim will NEVER "GET" that, and, thats just sad....
Anyways, off to walk Holly LOL...
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Quick Update
No job hunting today. A friend of mine redid my resume, so, I'm gonna start using that one starting tomorrow. Plus, I got up real late, and, getting up real late is gonna be a bitch for getting up early tomorrow. I really wish someone would contact me for a job out here already. It's getting kinda ridiculous. It will be 3 months I'm out here saturday, and, I haven't been offered ONE JOB. With all the applications I have sent out you would think I'd get SOMETHING by now.... I guess that 12:1 people applying to job ratio is way more killer than it even looks.
I guess if I look on the bright side... at least I haven't needed to ask to borrow money from anyone yet... Still have my emergency money, AND, at least I can maybe borrow against what I'll get back from my taxes which should get me thru another month.
This would be so much better if I actually was ENJOYING the fact I'm not working... But I'm not the type that does. It's UBER fucking depressing. Even days like today, and prolly tomorrow, I'll take off from looking, it's depressing as fuck to not have a job.
Anyways, off to walk Holly. At least I'm being productive THAT way....
Holly is cool, she has her own facebook BTW. Holly TheDawg. LOL she doesn;t like having her picture taken, so, yeah, there should be more pictures of her, but they would be of her ass walking away when I was trying to get a good picture.
I guess if I look on the bright side... at least I haven't needed to ask to borrow money from anyone yet... Still have my emergency money, AND, at least I can maybe borrow against what I'll get back from my taxes which should get me thru another month.
This would be so much better if I actually was ENJOYING the fact I'm not working... But I'm not the type that does. It's UBER fucking depressing. Even days like today, and prolly tomorrow, I'll take off from looking, it's depressing as fuck to not have a job.
Anyways, off to walk Holly. At least I'm being productive THAT way....
Holly is cool, she has her own facebook BTW. Holly TheDawg. LOL she doesn;t like having her picture taken, so, yeah, there should be more pictures of her, but they would be of her ass walking away when I was trying to get a good picture.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Ugh, I Need A Shower
Man I SMELL like azz. I need to shave and shower, but, I'm getting to the "What's the point of it all?" state of mind fast, so... I mean, what's the point of it all?
I just realized today, I have YET to do a wash since I moved out here. Ill be here 3 months next week. Don't really know what that says but, its a fact. Don't really NEED to... not out of clean clothes yet... yeah... I've gotten to do THAT little since I've been here.
Santa Ana winds are blowing up a storm tonight. It's actually pretty relaxing with the window opening listening to them.
Had some leftovers for lunch. Plus I made some more mini hot dogs. Not too much left in the way of leftovers from sunday. Might have some more after I finish in here. Trying to decide weather or not I should take a shower tonight, later, or tomorrow, or even THAN.
Maybe I'll chance having some iced cream too tonight. I kinda wish it was tomorrow cause than tomorrow I'd be taking that Jeopardy dealie. But I'll have to wait till tomorrow before I can say, Yay, tomorrow I'm taking that Jeopardy test.
I think I'll go get the mail after I'm done in here. My mom and dad told me last saturday that they were mailing me some stuff sometime soon. I'm looking forward to that. Maybe my parents found me more Boo Berry cereal!! I DO Still have 3 boxes left. I need to stretch them out till October when places liek Target stock it for 2 weeks and I can restock. I want to make Boo Berry treats again. they were tasty!
I enjoy cooking. If I win alot of money in the Lottery I think I'll open a resteraunt and cook good food for people. I can do something like In-n-Out and All American Burger do. Start with a limited menu. But when I start to cook something that turns out good add it as I go along. Start a website that people can visit while they are waiting for their food and take suggestions about stuff to prepare!!! Than decide weather or not I can prepare it well enough to sell. It could be fun, I could get my mom and dad to come help once my dad retires, force my GF to work as the hot hostess that dudes gawk at and keep coming BACK to gawk at... and force friends and family to work there when they visit or just u know, force them to work there LOL.
Oh man, being backed up is filling my head with all sorts of CRAZY ideas.... I'd say it never hurts to dream.... but it does
I just realized today, I have YET to do a wash since I moved out here. Ill be here 3 months next week. Don't really know what that says but, its a fact. Don't really NEED to... not out of clean clothes yet... yeah... I've gotten to do THAT little since I've been here.
Santa Ana winds are blowing up a storm tonight. It's actually pretty relaxing with the window opening listening to them.
Had some leftovers for lunch. Plus I made some more mini hot dogs. Not too much left in the way of leftovers from sunday. Might have some more after I finish in here. Trying to decide weather or not I should take a shower tonight, later, or tomorrow, or even THAN.
Maybe I'll chance having some iced cream too tonight. I kinda wish it was tomorrow cause than tomorrow I'd be taking that Jeopardy dealie. But I'll have to wait till tomorrow before I can say, Yay, tomorrow I'm taking that Jeopardy test.
I think I'll go get the mail after I'm done in here. My mom and dad told me last saturday that they were mailing me some stuff sometime soon. I'm looking forward to that. Maybe my parents found me more Boo Berry cereal!! I DO Still have 3 boxes left. I need to stretch them out till October when places liek Target stock it for 2 weeks and I can restock. I want to make Boo Berry treats again. they were tasty!
I enjoy cooking. If I win alot of money in the Lottery I think I'll open a resteraunt and cook good food for people. I can do something like In-n-Out and All American Burger do. Start with a limited menu. But when I start to cook something that turns out good add it as I go along. Start a website that people can visit while they are waiting for their food and take suggestions about stuff to prepare!!! Than decide weather or not I can prepare it well enough to sell. It could be fun, I could get my mom and dad to come help once my dad retires, force my GF to work as the hot hostess that dudes gawk at and keep coming BACK to gawk at... and force friends and family to work there when they visit or just u know, force them to work there LOL.
Oh man, being backed up is filling my head with all sorts of CRAZY ideas.... I'd say it never hurts to dream.... but it does
Another Boring Day...
Man, hitting my head back in the day really has fucked up my memory. I had a good topic to discuss here today, but, I seem to have forgotten it..... Speaking of seeming to forgotten it... Fidellio....
Hm, interesting, the bathroom STILL smells like hot sauce. I came in here last night and when I was expunging and writing I noticed that (previous to anything being unloaded) that it smelled like hot sauce or something. It still does in here. That very odd.
Looking forward to lunch and somemore left overs from sunday... gotta get em finished LOL... the food was good, can't very well just like let it rot and go to waste now can I?!?!? I felt bad enough throwing out the extra pizza dough i made, but I left it in the fridge too long while I was cooking sunday, and, it got all hard and didn't look in anyway edible anymore.
I miss my last job. I for the first time in my life understood what being proud of your job felt like. Add on top of that, working with really great people... I miss being there. I hate being out of work, you know, it's not so much the lack of income coming in, which kinda sucks, but, I enjoy being productive. I;m sounding like a broken record I'm sure, because I've prolly said this before,
But I miss the people I worked with, they were all good people, and ALL unique in some way, and, spending time in the lunchroom or the few minutes waiting to punch out to hear stories was really a good time.
Anyways, maybe I'll start making notes about what to discuss while in here from now on. I distinctly rememeber having a topic to discuss or relay when I got in here at THIS time today, last night, but, meh.... now I seem to have forgotten it... but, I HAVEN'T forgotten the password for admittance... Fidellio.... but in this case, I SEEM to have forgotten the password for the house....
Hm, interesting, the bathroom STILL smells like hot sauce. I came in here last night and when I was expunging and writing I noticed that (previous to anything being unloaded) that it smelled like hot sauce or something. It still does in here. That very odd.
Looking forward to lunch and somemore left overs from sunday... gotta get em finished LOL... the food was good, can't very well just like let it rot and go to waste now can I?!?!? I felt bad enough throwing out the extra pizza dough i made, but I left it in the fridge too long while I was cooking sunday, and, it got all hard and didn't look in anyway edible anymore.
I miss my last job. I for the first time in my life understood what being proud of your job felt like. Add on top of that, working with really great people... I miss being there. I hate being out of work, you know, it's not so much the lack of income coming in, which kinda sucks, but, I enjoy being productive. I;m sounding like a broken record I'm sure, because I've prolly said this before,
But I miss the people I worked with, they were all good people, and ALL unique in some way, and, spending time in the lunchroom or the few minutes waiting to punch out to hear stories was really a good time.
Anyways, maybe I'll start making notes about what to discuss while in here from now on. I distinctly rememeber having a topic to discuss or relay when I got in here at THIS time today, last night, but, meh.... now I seem to have forgotten it... but, I HAVEN'T forgotten the password for admittance... Fidellio.... but in this case, I SEEM to have forgotten the password for the house....
Monday, February 7, 2011
Funny...
My GF read my blog, and, LOL now her toothbrush is on the left side of the sink. Gotta just chuckle, cause, she was like, why didn't you tell me? I told her I did, she said Oh, and I was like, dude, you may have missed the point of me writing about it... THATS the kind of shit I find worthy of writing about or thinkink about, or talking about, cause, it makes me chuckle.
Apparently she didn't agree cause now the toothbrush is NOT where its in the way of the soap dispensor.
Which, I guess in a way is funny itself.
Not really too much happened today, same kinda start to my day as always, spent some time writing, spent some time looking and applying for job, got depressed, took Holly for a walk, cleaned.... had some leftovers for dinner. I'm actually amazed at how good my dip came out, I was asked to make a 7 layer dip, I believe I made it 9 or 10 layers... I didn't have a chance to really have any yesterday cause while cooking, it lent itself to eating the stuff when it came out, IE Took out the potatoe skins, had a few... took out the pizza rolls, had a few, etc... never got around to the dip, or even trying the wings i made too... the wings came out really good... used this chipolte spice mix my gf picked up at the Pomona Asian Festival a few weeks ago, not alot, just a bit, used 3 different kinds of BBQ sause, and than some honey... also wiped the wings with Olive Oil before popping them in the oven. Had a few tonight, pretty tasty....
Kinda wish I could cater some parties for people... I could be like Messiest cater EVER... but the food kicks ass LOL.
So, yeah, I signed up to take Jeopardy's "online test" to see if I could be a contestant. I wasn't going to do this, but, the past few days I haven't been focusing on the people who WON as much as the people who LOST, and, I don't really feel that I would look any dumber on there than some of these people did.
But, my gf and her sister watch it, and, they call out the answers along, and, apparently their encoruagement that I seem to know a good deal about things is working since, well, I signed up for the test.
The way it works is, you take a 50 question test online... than depending on how you score, if you score well enough they ask you to come in to take ANOTHER 50 question test... than if you do well on THAT they put you in test "Games" to see how you do... they than proceed to do interviews and such and than decide weather you make it on the show or not.
I actually think the 2nd 50 question test is a good idea that way, I'm sure people can prolly cheat on the online one, but, you can't CHEAT when they are asking you in person, so, this may deter people from cheating.
IDK, I keep telling them with my luck I won't get on there, and even if i DID, I would prolly get catagories I know NOTHING about, like Art and 17 century literature... cause there is days I do real well while watching, IE like today, i got the 1st 14 questions RIGHT in the 1st round... but, theres days ill go a whole round without answering ANYTHING right.... based on luck I guess as to which catagores come up... I don't honestly feel I'd get lukcy enough to get enough catagories I'd know something about to even have a chance at winning. It's kinda why I shyed away from the idea since I don't want to look like a complete fool on TV.
Guess we'ee see how the test goes thursday night.
Felling a bit under the weather today... I don't know why. When I took Holly out, it felt like it was like 75 degrees. Took my nyquill... maybe I'll wake up feeling a bit better. Looking forward to more leftovers tho LOL.
My gf and I are thinking of getting a small pet. She almost wants me to get my dog, but, since I want a Jack Russell Terrier, and, besides Holly there is another dog in the house, and I honestly think that dog would KILL a Jack Russell, I'm not really too up on that idea. Plus, honestly, I like Holly alot, and, Holly is a one dog per house kinda dog. If I was to get a dog to try and put in the same house as Holly, if after a month it was obvious Holly didn't like it, I'd than have to find a way to get it adopted someplace else. Holly was here 1st, and, I'd hate to disrespect her. I'd give it a try tho, and do my best to make SURE my dog didn't bother her.
One day...
But yeah, now we are talking about a Rabbit or Guinea Pig or a Rat, I'd like to have something a bit more exotic, I'd LIKE to have a Prarie Dog, but, I read that they are illegal EVERYWHERE in the US and have been since 2003. Hedgehogs are illegal in California. We were looking at Sugar Gliders, but, too small. We're thinking of getting a Chinchilla. We'll see, but, IDK, I'd hate for it to get out cause, the other dog in this house would eat it. Holly would prolly go running away from it since thats the kind of dog Holly is... She'd take one look at it, and be like, what the hell is that thing? Than go and lay down and not be bothered.
We were discussing it before, who knows? Maybe if I ever find a fucking job, I may be ok with it but at THIS point, IDK, I honestly feel like too much money is spent on animals in this house, but they aren't mine, so, I don't really opine about that too much, but that being said, me not being able to locate a job, putting more money out for a pet doesn't seem like the best course of action at the moment.
Anyways, off to bed. Maybe I'll go hit that staffing agency on weds during the day and see what they have to say... Still would much rather work for minimum wage and have a job with benefits, I'd hate to take yet another step back in life. I did that at 31, I'd hate to have to do that at 35 turning 36.
Apparently she didn't agree cause now the toothbrush is NOT where its in the way of the soap dispensor.
Which, I guess in a way is funny itself.
Not really too much happened today, same kinda start to my day as always, spent some time writing, spent some time looking and applying for job, got depressed, took Holly for a walk, cleaned.... had some leftovers for dinner. I'm actually amazed at how good my dip came out, I was asked to make a 7 layer dip, I believe I made it 9 or 10 layers... I didn't have a chance to really have any yesterday cause while cooking, it lent itself to eating the stuff when it came out, IE Took out the potatoe skins, had a few... took out the pizza rolls, had a few, etc... never got around to the dip, or even trying the wings i made too... the wings came out really good... used this chipolte spice mix my gf picked up at the Pomona Asian Festival a few weeks ago, not alot, just a bit, used 3 different kinds of BBQ sause, and than some honey... also wiped the wings with Olive Oil before popping them in the oven. Had a few tonight, pretty tasty....
Kinda wish I could cater some parties for people... I could be like Messiest cater EVER... but the food kicks ass LOL.
So, yeah, I signed up to take Jeopardy's "online test" to see if I could be a contestant. I wasn't going to do this, but, the past few days I haven't been focusing on the people who WON as much as the people who LOST, and, I don't really feel that I would look any dumber on there than some of these people did.
But, my gf and her sister watch it, and, they call out the answers along, and, apparently their encoruagement that I seem to know a good deal about things is working since, well, I signed up for the test.
The way it works is, you take a 50 question test online... than depending on how you score, if you score well enough they ask you to come in to take ANOTHER 50 question test... than if you do well on THAT they put you in test "Games" to see how you do... they than proceed to do interviews and such and than decide weather you make it on the show or not.
I actually think the 2nd 50 question test is a good idea that way, I'm sure people can prolly cheat on the online one, but, you can't CHEAT when they are asking you in person, so, this may deter people from cheating.
IDK, I keep telling them with my luck I won't get on there, and even if i DID, I would prolly get catagories I know NOTHING about, like Art and 17 century literature... cause there is days I do real well while watching, IE like today, i got the 1st 14 questions RIGHT in the 1st round... but, theres days ill go a whole round without answering ANYTHING right.... based on luck I guess as to which catagores come up... I don't honestly feel I'd get lukcy enough to get enough catagories I'd know something about to even have a chance at winning. It's kinda why I shyed away from the idea since I don't want to look like a complete fool on TV.
Guess we'ee see how the test goes thursday night.
Felling a bit under the weather today... I don't know why. When I took Holly out, it felt like it was like 75 degrees. Took my nyquill... maybe I'll wake up feeling a bit better. Looking forward to more leftovers tho LOL.
My gf and I are thinking of getting a small pet. She almost wants me to get my dog, but, since I want a Jack Russell Terrier, and, besides Holly there is another dog in the house, and I honestly think that dog would KILL a Jack Russell, I'm not really too up on that idea. Plus, honestly, I like Holly alot, and, Holly is a one dog per house kinda dog. If I was to get a dog to try and put in the same house as Holly, if after a month it was obvious Holly didn't like it, I'd than have to find a way to get it adopted someplace else. Holly was here 1st, and, I'd hate to disrespect her. I'd give it a try tho, and do my best to make SURE my dog didn't bother her.
One day...
But yeah, now we are talking about a Rabbit or Guinea Pig or a Rat, I'd like to have something a bit more exotic, I'd LIKE to have a Prarie Dog, but, I read that they are illegal EVERYWHERE in the US and have been since 2003. Hedgehogs are illegal in California. We were looking at Sugar Gliders, but, too small. We're thinking of getting a Chinchilla. We'll see, but, IDK, I'd hate for it to get out cause, the other dog in this house would eat it. Holly would prolly go running away from it since thats the kind of dog Holly is... She'd take one look at it, and be like, what the hell is that thing? Than go and lay down and not be bothered.
We were discussing it before, who knows? Maybe if I ever find a fucking job, I may be ok with it but at THIS point, IDK, I honestly feel like too much money is spent on animals in this house, but they aren't mine, so, I don't really opine about that too much, but that being said, me not being able to locate a job, putting more money out for a pet doesn't seem like the best course of action at the moment.
Anyways, off to bed. Maybe I'll go hit that staffing agency on weds during the day and see what they have to say... Still would much rather work for minimum wage and have a job with benefits, I'd hate to take yet another step back in life. I did that at 31, I'd hate to have to do that at 35 turning 36.
Super Bowl Monday!!!
And were off... The Browns have just made their entrance to the sound of blowing fans and clickin keys!!!! They made such a slash!!!!
Anyways, no entry yesterday, I was too busy cooking and cleaning and such to go to be in here. Odd, I usually go two-three times daily as you all know, but yesterday I was so preoccupied that, I didn't go at all.
Wish I has an interesting story or something to talk about, but, my yesterday is still fresh on my mind. My gf and her sister invited some friends over for the game, I was excited cause I got to pretty much make everything hommemade.
Made lots of good stuff, got to learn a better way to make pizza rolls tho, made them a few diffferent ways, like, not the filling as much as the way you "MAKE" them, as I can't seem to find a way to do it.
OH heres a funny story that happened...
Saturday night I started doing some things for Sunday as to cut down on prep time, made my pizza dough, made my brownies, my 2 banana cakes... anyways, mf gf decides she wants to make cookies. Last week she purcashed those ones you break into squares and place on a cookie sheet and pop in the oven. So she put the other half of them into the oven.....she goes back to watching TV.... she forgets them.... LOL 20 minutes later realizes it..., OH SHIT!!! MY COOKIES!!!!... runs over to the oven.... made brown and mad hard....
Knowing how things are here some times, I purchased her 2 more packages at the 99 cents only store when I went last week... she popped one of those out, and, since by this time I was done cooking, but we were watching that show Challenge, I ask if she waanted to leave the oven on to cook more cookies...
So, she popped another package in... she came back over, we watched challenge, and, at the end...
OH SHIT!!!!! MY COOKIES!!!!!
25-30 minutes later, my gfs cookies were dark brown and MADDDDD Crunchy coming OUT of the oven LOL...
I laugh my ass off, cause who does that kind of thing TWICE in a row?!?!? But i got mine... i went to cut into my 1st batch of brownies... and, low and behold, I Screwed up by putting flour over the shortening before I popped the mix in.... this is what my banana cakes called for NOT my brownies.... and doing the 2 cakes previous to the brownies.... and being tired... well... its a good thing I only got like 3 hours sleep saturday into sunday cause I woke up, went to the store and had time to make another batch.
But yeah, enjoyed my day, my gf has a friend I really enjoy talking to, nice guy, wish he'd hang out more, but sadly, he had to go to work after the 1st half. You would think businesses that stay OPEN on Super Bowl sunday would get the people to work who don't give a shit ABOUT Super Bowl sunday. Where I used to work at that heartless drug store chain, thats what they did... was nice seeing him for a few hours tho.
Thats about it, not really too much else to talk about, looking forward to eating some leftover snacks after walking Holly, and, than having the leftover 7+ Layer Dip for dinner later....yum yum.
Anyways, no entry yesterday, I was too busy cooking and cleaning and such to go to be in here. Odd, I usually go two-three times daily as you all know, but yesterday I was so preoccupied that, I didn't go at all.
Wish I has an interesting story or something to talk about, but, my yesterday is still fresh on my mind. My gf and her sister invited some friends over for the game, I was excited cause I got to pretty much make everything hommemade.
Made lots of good stuff, got to learn a better way to make pizza rolls tho, made them a few diffferent ways, like, not the filling as much as the way you "MAKE" them, as I can't seem to find a way to do it.
OH heres a funny story that happened...
Saturday night I started doing some things for Sunday as to cut down on prep time, made my pizza dough, made my brownies, my 2 banana cakes... anyways, mf gf decides she wants to make cookies. Last week she purcashed those ones you break into squares and place on a cookie sheet and pop in the oven. So she put the other half of them into the oven.....she goes back to watching TV.... she forgets them.... LOL 20 minutes later realizes it..., OH SHIT!!! MY COOKIES!!!!... runs over to the oven.... made brown and mad hard....
Knowing how things are here some times, I purchased her 2 more packages at the 99 cents only store when I went last week... she popped one of those out, and, since by this time I was done cooking, but we were watching that show Challenge, I ask if she waanted to leave the oven on to cook more cookies...
So, she popped another package in... she came back over, we watched challenge, and, at the end...
OH SHIT!!!!! MY COOKIES!!!!!
25-30 minutes later, my gfs cookies were dark brown and MADDDDD Crunchy coming OUT of the oven LOL...
I laugh my ass off, cause who does that kind of thing TWICE in a row?!?!? But i got mine... i went to cut into my 1st batch of brownies... and, low and behold, I Screwed up by putting flour over the shortening before I popped the mix in.... this is what my banana cakes called for NOT my brownies.... and doing the 2 cakes previous to the brownies.... and being tired... well... its a good thing I only got like 3 hours sleep saturday into sunday cause I woke up, went to the store and had time to make another batch.
But yeah, enjoyed my day, my gf has a friend I really enjoy talking to, nice guy, wish he'd hang out more, but sadly, he had to go to work after the 1st half. You would think businesses that stay OPEN on Super Bowl sunday would get the people to work who don't give a shit ABOUT Super Bowl sunday. Where I used to work at that heartless drug store chain, thats what they did... was nice seeing him for a few hours tho.
Thats about it, not really too much else to talk about, looking forward to eating some leftover snacks after walking Holly, and, than having the leftover 7+ Layer Dip for dinner later....yum yum.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Who Is....Ken Smith?
a 12th centurty druid and poltical activist.
So yeah... here I sit... nothing to much on my mind.
I had weird dreams last night. I have this odd theory that when we sleep, that IF other dimensions and consciousnesses of ourselves IS a possibility, like alternate timelines and such, sometimes we live those lives.
Let me try to explain a little more.
One dream I had one time, I woke up, in my dream, driving MY CAR, down a road, the Meadowbrook Parkway, at night..... I woke up in my dream in that car JUST in time to stop myself from hitting a barrier head on, after that I proceeded to just drive on down the parkway for another few minutes before I woke up in the middle of the night in real life.
I feel like if one of your other conscienceness falls asleep when they AREN'T SUPPOSED TO, using the above as an example, the universe transfer your sleeping conscienceness (or, ONE of your sleeping conscenesses) into that conscienceness thats SUPPOSED to be awake but ISN'T, again, see the above dream. My alternate conscienceness was SUPPOSED to be awake while driving down the parkway, but, being at NIGHT, we'll assume maybe he was driving home or whatever and was tired and SHOULDN'T have been driving.... he fell asleep.... AND since in that alternate time line, he WASN'T supposed to die, the universe transfered a SLEEPING conscienceness, me from my time line INTO his, to save him.... than, he wouldn't know how close he came to death, and I would just think it's whats accepted as a "dream" in this time line.
Does any of this make any sort of sense to anyone who reads this?
I don't know how often people have these types of dreams.
I have them everyonce in a while, and, because these aren't an a-typical dreams, as how WE describe dreams, I figured there may have been something more to these dreams than just dreams.
I had one like this last night.
Keep in mind, what I'm explaining here is DREAMING about a sequence of events that FEELS real, and not in a classic FEELS REAL sense, meaning, who dreams about what your normal day would be? And just living it like you would?
The one I had previous to this one is... and it kinda helps my theory....
Around late May last year, I had a dream where I woke up... did my NORMAL everyday routine, IE.... wake up in bed, hit the snooze alarm, roll out of bed, have a sit down on the toilet, strip down, than get in the shower... this is where i proceeded to wake up.
So you catch my explination here, I DREAMED about what I did EVERYMORNING, whats funny is, you would THINK this kind of thing would happen OFTEN, maybe out of the fact we typically do the same routines every morning, but, I never hear anyone having these dreams at all.....
Anyways, I proceeded to wake up from my dream, and, went about my daily business...
Now, heres how it patches in with my theory.... there has been occasions in the past where I'll wake up, do my thing, get in the shower.... but somehow during the shower i "lose" time... meaning like, I remember GETTING in the shower... STARTING to brush my teeth... next thing I know, I'm rinsing soap off my head..... Don't remember ANYTHING between STARTING to brush my teeth (IE FINISHING brushing my teeth, using mouthwash #1, washing my body while using mouthwash #1, spitting out mouth wash #1, rinsing my body off of soap, using mouthwash #2, washing my head while using mouthwash #2, spitting out mouthwash #2) and rinising soap off my head..... I could TASTE the mouthwash in my mouth, so I DID use mouthwashes....
Hey, maybe I was on auto pilot or something, maybe, I don't really have a firm belief in this, like I said, THEORY, but, thats what I mean, if I had passed out in the shower standing up, theres a good chance that I could've fallen and railed my head on the tub and died.... but maybe that point in time WASN'T my time to die, and, the universe inserted another conscienceness into me to do that 10-15 minutes of my life so it DIDN'T end horribly.
I've never really talked about this theory at all for a few reasons, but, whats funny, I told my co-worker about this, real nice guy, VERY confident, really not shaken... he proceeded to tell me I was really a weirdo, but in a loving way LOL, we became friends on the job, but he always thought I was a little, well, ALOT off and strange with some of the things I discussed.... so when I toldhim this one day, he kinda scoffed and put it off to me being a weirdo and strange (I told him, hey, maybe I'm just creative!!!) but lo and behold like 2 months later, he came into work and said, dude, you know that dream thing you were telling me about? the "realistic" dream thing? I had one like that last night, kinda freaked me out a bit, I was like in my dream doing stuff I would've normally done in real life... it was odd..... kinda freaked me.
Anyways, IDK what is what with this. Maybe its just the repetive nature of daily life getting to you, or the fact that the "Aura" of a "DREAM" is to have something you yearn about getting, maybe but who really knows the ultimate power of the universe?
I mean think about it... a nightmare where you die, how do you know thats not YOU really dying in an alternate time line, but the universe is nice enough to that alternate time line you, that when its happening, it pulls out the alternate time line conscienceness to save that alt life from the pain and suffering of death, and inserts one of the other alt time line consciencenesses that are SLEEPING, cause to them, its just what we call a nightmare?
IDK, I find this an interesting theory, maybe you might too. Gotta get ready to head out shopping with the GF after her and her sister get back from doing the tax thing. Have a nice day!
So yeah... here I sit... nothing to much on my mind.
I had weird dreams last night. I have this odd theory that when we sleep, that IF other dimensions and consciousnesses of ourselves IS a possibility, like alternate timelines and such, sometimes we live those lives.
Let me try to explain a little more.
One dream I had one time, I woke up, in my dream, driving MY CAR, down a road, the Meadowbrook Parkway, at night..... I woke up in my dream in that car JUST in time to stop myself from hitting a barrier head on, after that I proceeded to just drive on down the parkway for another few minutes before I woke up in the middle of the night in real life.
I feel like if one of your other conscienceness falls asleep when they AREN'T SUPPOSED TO, using the above as an example, the universe transfer your sleeping conscienceness (or, ONE of your sleeping conscenesses) into that conscienceness thats SUPPOSED to be awake but ISN'T, again, see the above dream. My alternate conscienceness was SUPPOSED to be awake while driving down the parkway, but, being at NIGHT, we'll assume maybe he was driving home or whatever and was tired and SHOULDN'T have been driving.... he fell asleep.... AND since in that alternate time line, he WASN'T supposed to die, the universe transfered a SLEEPING conscienceness, me from my time line INTO his, to save him.... than, he wouldn't know how close he came to death, and I would just think it's whats accepted as a "dream" in this time line.
Does any of this make any sort of sense to anyone who reads this?
I don't know how often people have these types of dreams.
I have them everyonce in a while, and, because these aren't an a-typical dreams, as how WE describe dreams, I figured there may have been something more to these dreams than just dreams.
I had one like this last night.
Keep in mind, what I'm explaining here is DREAMING about a sequence of events that FEELS real, and not in a classic FEELS REAL sense, meaning, who dreams about what your normal day would be? And just living it like you would?
The one I had previous to this one is... and it kinda helps my theory....
Around late May last year, I had a dream where I woke up... did my NORMAL everyday routine, IE.... wake up in bed, hit the snooze alarm, roll out of bed, have a sit down on the toilet, strip down, than get in the shower... this is where i proceeded to wake up.
So you catch my explination here, I DREAMED about what I did EVERYMORNING, whats funny is, you would THINK this kind of thing would happen OFTEN, maybe out of the fact we typically do the same routines every morning, but, I never hear anyone having these dreams at all.....
Anyways, I proceeded to wake up from my dream, and, went about my daily business...
Now, heres how it patches in with my theory.... there has been occasions in the past where I'll wake up, do my thing, get in the shower.... but somehow during the shower i "lose" time... meaning like, I remember GETTING in the shower... STARTING to brush my teeth... next thing I know, I'm rinsing soap off my head..... Don't remember ANYTHING between STARTING to brush my teeth (IE FINISHING brushing my teeth, using mouthwash #1, washing my body while using mouthwash #1, spitting out mouth wash #1, rinsing my body off of soap, using mouthwash #2, washing my head while using mouthwash #2, spitting out mouthwash #2) and rinising soap off my head..... I could TASTE the mouthwash in my mouth, so I DID use mouthwashes....
Hey, maybe I was on auto pilot or something, maybe, I don't really have a firm belief in this, like I said, THEORY, but, thats what I mean, if I had passed out in the shower standing up, theres a good chance that I could've fallen and railed my head on the tub and died.... but maybe that point in time WASN'T my time to die, and, the universe inserted another conscienceness into me to do that 10-15 minutes of my life so it DIDN'T end horribly.
I've never really talked about this theory at all for a few reasons, but, whats funny, I told my co-worker about this, real nice guy, VERY confident, really not shaken... he proceeded to tell me I was really a weirdo, but in a loving way LOL, we became friends on the job, but he always thought I was a little, well, ALOT off and strange with some of the things I discussed.... so when I toldhim this one day, he kinda scoffed and put it off to me being a weirdo and strange (I told him, hey, maybe I'm just creative!!!) but lo and behold like 2 months later, he came into work and said, dude, you know that dream thing you were telling me about? the "realistic" dream thing? I had one like that last night, kinda freaked me out a bit, I was like in my dream doing stuff I would've normally done in real life... it was odd..... kinda freaked me.
Anyways, IDK what is what with this. Maybe its just the repetive nature of daily life getting to you, or the fact that the "Aura" of a "DREAM" is to have something you yearn about getting, maybe but who really knows the ultimate power of the universe?
I mean think about it... a nightmare where you die, how do you know thats not YOU really dying in an alternate time line, but the universe is nice enough to that alternate time line you, that when its happening, it pulls out the alternate time line conscienceness to save that alt life from the pain and suffering of death, and inserts one of the other alt time line consciencenesses that are SLEEPING, cause to them, its just what we call a nightmare?
IDK, I find this an interesting theory, maybe you might too. Gotta get ready to head out shopping with the GF after her and her sister get back from doing the tax thing. Have a nice day!
Friday, February 4, 2011
Do You Make An Enormous Amount Of Money...
by shoving your fist up a ducks bottom?
So, I woke up, rolled around, pet Holly.... couldn't get back to sleep... sauntered downstairs, I was halfway thru my Monster when my bowels felt the urge to purge... So here I am.
This blog MAY have jumped the shark so to speak last night. We'll see what happens in the next few days, but it MAY be the beginning of the end... let's hope its the beginning of the begine' (buh-geen).
Didn't get a chance to get into my job hunt yet today. I think I'll hit that staffing agency monday, cause it sure seems that no where I am applying is in anyway, shape or form interested in hiring me. I read a story about Riverside, CA being the 2nd worst job market in America right now, something like 12 or 13 people applying PER open job. I Still don't imagine there are THAT many people floating around with my qualifications, BUT, what can you do.
I think I'm going to be unhappy getting a job this way since, well, I really wanted to benefits. And for me to take a job for LESS than I was making at my previous job, which I had not yet received benefits, is a HUGE step backwards for me. I had restarted my life basically after I stopped working for that heartless drug chain... and in 3 years at that job, I had achieved close to what I was making after 11 at the heartless drug chain...with a job JUST over the horizon making SUBSTANCIALLY more than at the heartless drug chain. So, getting a temp job is going to make me a bit sad, and maybe unhappy when I see I'll be getting paid LESS to be in basically the SAME situation.... I'll be happy with whatever I'm doing, as, I enjoy working. Weather its a job i really like, or, I'm not to happy with, cause, I'm being a productive member of society. Right NOW... I still feel like I'm a productive member of society since, while I am out of work, I'm still spending my money.... and I'm NOT aquiring money off the government. When I run OUT of money, I still won't feel like a burden on society, since I will not apply for government benefits, so, I'll be.... just THERE...
Anyways, I think I'll go monday. I really want to work, and it really sucks NOT working.
Man, I gotta get back to telling some interesting stories. Not that anyone reads this blog, which is fine actually, but, I like laughing and smiling while I'm remembering my friends and family. Makes me feel better.
anyways, off to job hunt....
So, I woke up, rolled around, pet Holly.... couldn't get back to sleep... sauntered downstairs, I was halfway thru my Monster when my bowels felt the urge to purge... So here I am.
This blog MAY have jumped the shark so to speak last night. We'll see what happens in the next few days, but it MAY be the beginning of the end... let's hope its the beginning of the begine' (buh-geen).
Didn't get a chance to get into my job hunt yet today. I think I'll hit that staffing agency monday, cause it sure seems that no where I am applying is in anyway, shape or form interested in hiring me. I read a story about Riverside, CA being the 2nd worst job market in America right now, something like 12 or 13 people applying PER open job. I Still don't imagine there are THAT many people floating around with my qualifications, BUT, what can you do.
I think I'm going to be unhappy getting a job this way since, well, I really wanted to benefits. And for me to take a job for LESS than I was making at my previous job, which I had not yet received benefits, is a HUGE step backwards for me. I had restarted my life basically after I stopped working for that heartless drug chain... and in 3 years at that job, I had achieved close to what I was making after 11 at the heartless drug chain...with a job JUST over the horizon making SUBSTANCIALLY more than at the heartless drug chain. So, getting a temp job is going to make me a bit sad, and maybe unhappy when I see I'll be getting paid LESS to be in basically the SAME situation.... I'll be happy with whatever I'm doing, as, I enjoy working. Weather its a job i really like, or, I'm not to happy with, cause, I'm being a productive member of society. Right NOW... I still feel like I'm a productive member of society since, while I am out of work, I'm still spending my money.... and I'm NOT aquiring money off the government. When I run OUT of money, I still won't feel like a burden on society, since I will not apply for government benefits, so, I'll be.... just THERE...
Anyways, I think I'll go monday. I really want to work, and it really sucks NOT working.
Man, I gotta get back to telling some interesting stories. Not that anyone reads this blog, which is fine actually, but, I like laughing and smiling while I'm remembering my friends and family. Makes me feel better.
anyways, off to job hunt....
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Gf's Bathroom-Thursday, 2/3/11 1:17pm PST
*NOTE* WOW.... this site doesn't allow me to copy and paste from my email to HERE.... so I have to retype what I sent to my email while I was on the toilet before...
anyways.... heres what I wrote while on there before...
Having a quick sit down before taking holly for a walk. Didnt want to bring the lt in to convalute and hold up The process. Heres a thought tho, maybe i should close the bathroom window. Not that its cold per say, but with the rest of the house Warmer it feels like really cold on my ass cheeks when i sit down. Man a million dollar invention? Heated toilet seats. I should look into that.
I than proceeded to send THIS message to a bunch of my contacts on my phone...
Million $ invention. Heated toilet seats. that way u can hav the window open 2 let the stank out but the next person doesnt get a cold ass. Who wants to invest?
Here are the responses I got....verbatim
"sorry to tell u but there's heated toilet seats already."~Gf's Sister
"what about in the summer aircodition"~friend and ex co worker
"wow. thats pretty good"~friend, drummer/co singer/co song writer in my 1st band
"lmao... japanese beat u to it... heats/sprays water/ has air that dries... going to lunch now baby~gf
"Right after i buy that bridge you offered last week"~family
"dude, they already have them in Japan!"~friend from the UK
"I believe its been done :-P"~friend and ex co worker
"Remind me of a joke. Wut do pussy n a warm toilet seat hav in common? They both feel great but u cant help but wonder who was there before u."~friend
"Too late my man! Japanese company already makes them!"~friend and ex co worker
"We need one for the back shop right away! You're alive!!!"~friend and ex co worker
"Sorry man those already exist lol... back to the drawering bored"~friend
"Lmao"~friend
So the moral of the story? Either, I should be happy cause I'm as smart as some japanese dude, or, I should be sad that I'm a repetitive lessoff with no original ideas of my own.... HM....
anyways.... heres what I wrote while on there before...
Having a quick sit down before taking holly for a walk. Didnt want to bring the lt in to convalute and hold up The process. Heres a thought tho, maybe i should close the bathroom window. Not that its cold per say, but with the rest of the house Warmer it feels like really cold on my ass cheeks when i sit down. Man a million dollar invention? Heated toilet seats. I should look into that.
I than proceeded to send THIS message to a bunch of my contacts on my phone...
Million $ invention. Heated toilet seats. that way u can hav the window open 2 let the stank out but the next person doesnt get a cold ass. Who wants to invest?
Here are the responses I got....verbatim
"sorry to tell u but there's heated toilet seats already."~Gf's Sister
"what about in the summer aircodition"~friend and ex co worker
"wow. thats pretty good"~friend, drummer/co singer/co song writer in my 1st band
"lmao... japanese beat u to it... heats/sprays water/ has air that dries... going to lunch now baby~gf
"Right after i buy that bridge you offered last week"~family
"dude, they already have them in Japan!"~friend from the UK
"I believe its been done :-P"~friend and ex co worker
"Remind me of a joke. Wut do pussy n a warm toilet seat hav in common? They both feel great but u cant help but wonder who was there before u."~friend
"Too late my man! Japanese company already makes them!"~friend and ex co worker
"We need one for the back shop right away! You're alive!!!"~friend and ex co worker
"Sorry man those already exist lol... back to the drawering bored"~friend
"Lmao"~friend
So the moral of the story? Either, I should be happy cause I'm as smart as some japanese dude, or, I should be sad that I'm a repetitive lessoff with no original ideas of my own.... HM....
Back In To Finish Things Off.... For The Time Being...
Heres a quick thought, something I don't understand, and can't seem to make heads or tails of.
I'm living with my gf and her sister for the time being out here in Cali. They were awesome enough to understand the whole scenrio about me moving out here, the reasons, etc, etc, so, this is where I am at.
Obviously, I'm sharing a room with my gf. Her sister has the master bedroom, so, her room has its own big bathroom and a wet room, which is kinda awesome. So, the upstairs where the rooms are, my gf and I have the second bathroom thats upstairs. I hope the aesthetics are understandable. Basically cause her sister has a bathroom in her room, the second bathroom on the floor is my gfs? IDK, anyways, my gf is one of those women who has mad tubes and bottles and such laying around. It's actually quite humerous.
But on the sink there is alot of beauty products and such.
If your a woman, you will fully understand this I'll assume, and prolly get a chuckle out of it, if your a man living with a woman, you too will also understand this scenerio and prolly think, yeah i baarely have any room for my stuff.... which isn't a prob here cause I do everything in the shower, and if your a single dude, meaning, no regular GF, not married, not engaged, just a single dude, be it, single NOT getting laid, OR, single and getting MAD laid.... you, chances are won't get the comedy here.... best suggestion I can give you? Next time your on a date and she brings you back to HER place.... go take a piss, or wash your hands, or whatever, find an excuse to use the bathroom, and, just take a look around, and you WILL get it... well, unless of course, shes got more than one bathroom, and, there is a GUEST bathroom, and the master suite bathroom, which in that case, if you get laid, before you leave, take a look in the master bathroom.... you may enjoy the comedy of this than.
ANYWAYS, my gf does do something that I just don't get. She seems to ALWAYS put her toothbrush down on the ONE part of the sink it SHOULDN'T be....
Now, while I write this next passage about my gfs toothbrush, think about all the varibles I just talked about above, and try and guess what I mean when I say, the ONE part of the sink a toothbrush SHOULDN'T be....
My gf has one of those electric toothbrush dealies. Like, ok, not ELECTRIC, but battery operated... I think its an Oral-B (as opposed to an Oral-A, which, you would think would be a better choice for a name, since, well, Oral-B suggests SECOND best, as in school and like while grading meats, A is better than B, so, why its Oral-B INSTEAD of Oral-A, I don't really know at the moment, that might be something I could Wiki in the future, which, on even a further side note, my wiki'ing is going downhill cause of this blog since THATS what I used to do while sitting here, but anyways...) But, I believe its an Oral-B, you know, one of those dealies where its 2 brushes in one, the top is like a circle, that moves in a circular motion when on, and, the botton in a square or rectangle and moves up and down when turned on? So, when she put it on the sink, its NOT laying down, its standing up.
Ok, so, back to what I was saying, and, I'm sure you have ample time to try and figure out where the ONE place on the sink counter a toothbrush SHOULDN'T be....
She ALWAYS stands it up.... RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE HAND SOAP.
Yes. RIGHT IN FRONT.
Which means, when I'm done with my business here, well here is the chain of events....
I take the laptop off my lap, and place it not on the floor, but, on top of some of the laundry on the floor so that way in case my feeble mind forgets that its ON the floor and I step back and onto it, maybe having some cushion underneath MIGHT help it, but I lean forward, I place the laptop down, than I do my clean up work underneath... you would think with my expertise in this area, the federal government would have NO problem hiring me, since I do such a good job cleaning up, making sure to get in the crack to make sure its spotless.... I than proceed to stand up, pull my pants or shorts or whatever up, turn, go to get some HAND SOAP to wash my now "Dirty" hands.... but WAIT.... I can't obtain any hand soap... because, to GET to the hand soap, I now have to find a way (a very good song by the band Smoosh BTW, but thats neither here nor there) to move my gf's toothbrush, that she puts in her mouth, WITHOUT touching it with my micro fecal matter covered hands.....
And each time, its an interesting puzzle to be solved....
Now, I know what some of your may be thinking here, if she needs to put it where she puts it, lay it down with the brush side up so its not on the dirty sink....
While THAT seems like a fabulous idea.... what happens if the brush winds up under the spout of the hand soap (oh, of which we have TWO things of hand soap in the bathrooth BTW... which, is a story for another day) so NOW, theres a chance there will be hand soap on my gfs toothbrush the next time she goes to use it, because, as EVERYONE knows, hand soap ALWAYS leaks from those things....
But, how do I go about this now? I NEED to wash my hands, cause, clearly like you can tell, I have NOT touched the laptop with fecal matter covered hands.... ALSO, I honestly have an aversion to touching bathroom doors with my hands, because, well, people, honestly, how many times have you gone to the bathroom and NOT washed your hands afterwards, yet proceeded to walk out and touch a door handle.... and even if YOU haven't, think about the amount of times it has happened PREVIOUS to you using a public restroom... a good example of this? A bathroom POST-game at a sporting event when the lines are out the door.... your in a rush and you piss, and go....in public restrooms, I always use paper towels to open the door after I wash cause of this....
SO.... touching the door to get out and wash my hands in a different bathroom, IE the kitchen sink, is NOT an option...
LEAVING THE DOOR OPEN... is not an option EITHER, because in addition to Holly being in the house (not that she would come in the bathroom, cause she won't) my gf's sister has a dog as well, but this dog is stupid. If you leave the bathroom door open, the dog will come in and nuzzle you while you are taking a shit, and, I'd rather not have a dog nuzzling me while I'm taking a shit... while it seems that alot of dogs LIKE shoving their noses in assing that are shitting, WHILE they are shitting, or immediately POST shitting, yeah, this isn't an option EITHER....
So, we're now back to the problem, how than in fact do I wash my hands, and the ORIGINAL question and non understandability of why my gf proceeds to stand her toothbrush up in front of the hand soap dispenser in the first place?!?!?!
Most times, I use my elbow and push the brush over onto the sink AWAY from where the soap dispenser is, but than, I feel bad that it hits the sink top, and I spend 5 minutes washing it, which, when your busying bumming around the house without a job, dude, those 5 minutes are FUCKING PRECIOUS, well, ok, TECHNICALLY those 5 minutes arent "fucking" the actress from the movie Precious, but, I think you caught my original meaning here, other times, I unroll some TP and grab it and move it with THAT, but, than, I'm wasting resources that in my current jobless position is dire to saving, since I don't have the 70 cents to go buy another roll.... I'd than wind up like one of those bums, except when I was walking around looking for deposit cans, instead of going and buying a 40 of Night Train or Olde E, or my FAV... Crazy Horse, or even some Georgi Vodka, I'd be the weirdo telling the cashier at Ralph's...
"dude, I walked around ALL FUCKING DAY for the deposits to get enough money to buy toilet paper to wipe my ass, cause I had to use the last of the previous roll to move my gfs toothbrush, because she ALWAYS places it RIGHT in front of the fucking hand soap dispenser!!!!"
So, as if you didn't think that the bathroom and emptying out WASN'T an adventure, most days, for me, it IS an adventure in here.
What to do about the toothbrush situation? I don't rightly know. I moved it before when I was in here, since, you know, it WAS in front of the hand soap dispenser, so, it won't be an issue AGAIN, but, what about tomorrow morning when I come in here for my morning glory?!?!?!
Yeah yeah yeah... I ALREADY know what you smart asses are thinking... why don't you just ask your gf to NOT put it in front of the hand soap dispenser, I have. Which leads me to think, maybe she put it there on purpose, and, while shes at work, gets a good fat laugh out of my puzzlement in the bathroom, knowing that I forget about shit like that UNTIL I see it sitting there.... and then I get all flustered about what am I gonna do?!?!?! AHHHH?!?!?
Well, if I start to believe that IS in fact the case.... maybe I'll start using her toothbrush to make EXTRA sure my butthole is clean..... HOW DO YOU LIKE ME NOW?!?!?!?!?!?!?
I'm living with my gf and her sister for the time being out here in Cali. They were awesome enough to understand the whole scenrio about me moving out here, the reasons, etc, etc, so, this is where I am at.
Obviously, I'm sharing a room with my gf. Her sister has the master bedroom, so, her room has its own big bathroom and a wet room, which is kinda awesome. So, the upstairs where the rooms are, my gf and I have the second bathroom thats upstairs. I hope the aesthetics are understandable. Basically cause her sister has a bathroom in her room, the second bathroom on the floor is my gfs? IDK, anyways, my gf is one of those women who has mad tubes and bottles and such laying around. It's actually quite humerous.
But on the sink there is alot of beauty products and such.
If your a woman, you will fully understand this I'll assume, and prolly get a chuckle out of it, if your a man living with a woman, you too will also understand this scenerio and prolly think, yeah i baarely have any room for my stuff.... which isn't a prob here cause I do everything in the shower, and if your a single dude, meaning, no regular GF, not married, not engaged, just a single dude, be it, single NOT getting laid, OR, single and getting MAD laid.... you, chances are won't get the comedy here.... best suggestion I can give you? Next time your on a date and she brings you back to HER place.... go take a piss, or wash your hands, or whatever, find an excuse to use the bathroom, and, just take a look around, and you WILL get it... well, unless of course, shes got more than one bathroom, and, there is a GUEST bathroom, and the master suite bathroom, which in that case, if you get laid, before you leave, take a look in the master bathroom.... you may enjoy the comedy of this than.
ANYWAYS, my gf does do something that I just don't get. She seems to ALWAYS put her toothbrush down on the ONE part of the sink it SHOULDN'T be....
Now, while I write this next passage about my gfs toothbrush, think about all the varibles I just talked about above, and try and guess what I mean when I say, the ONE part of the sink a toothbrush SHOULDN'T be....
My gf has one of those electric toothbrush dealies. Like, ok, not ELECTRIC, but battery operated... I think its an Oral-B (as opposed to an Oral-A, which, you would think would be a better choice for a name, since, well, Oral-B suggests SECOND best, as in school and like while grading meats, A is better than B, so, why its Oral-B INSTEAD of Oral-A, I don't really know at the moment, that might be something I could Wiki in the future, which, on even a further side note, my wiki'ing is going downhill cause of this blog since THATS what I used to do while sitting here, but anyways...) But, I believe its an Oral-B, you know, one of those dealies where its 2 brushes in one, the top is like a circle, that moves in a circular motion when on, and, the botton in a square or rectangle and moves up and down when turned on? So, when she put it on the sink, its NOT laying down, its standing up.
Ok, so, back to what I was saying, and, I'm sure you have ample time to try and figure out where the ONE place on the sink counter a toothbrush SHOULDN'T be....
She ALWAYS stands it up.... RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE HAND SOAP.
Yes. RIGHT IN FRONT.
Which means, when I'm done with my business here, well here is the chain of events....
I take the laptop off my lap, and place it not on the floor, but, on top of some of the laundry on the floor so that way in case my feeble mind forgets that its ON the floor and I step back and onto it, maybe having some cushion underneath MIGHT help it, but I lean forward, I place the laptop down, than I do my clean up work underneath... you would think with my expertise in this area, the federal government would have NO problem hiring me, since I do such a good job cleaning up, making sure to get in the crack to make sure its spotless.... I than proceed to stand up, pull my pants or shorts or whatever up, turn, go to get some HAND SOAP to wash my now "Dirty" hands.... but WAIT.... I can't obtain any hand soap... because, to GET to the hand soap, I now have to find a way (a very good song by the band Smoosh BTW, but thats neither here nor there) to move my gf's toothbrush, that she puts in her mouth, WITHOUT touching it with my micro fecal matter covered hands.....
And each time, its an interesting puzzle to be solved....
Now, I know what some of your may be thinking here, if she needs to put it where she puts it, lay it down with the brush side up so its not on the dirty sink....
While THAT seems like a fabulous idea.... what happens if the brush winds up under the spout of the hand soap (oh, of which we have TWO things of hand soap in the bathrooth BTW... which, is a story for another day) so NOW, theres a chance there will be hand soap on my gfs toothbrush the next time she goes to use it, because, as EVERYONE knows, hand soap ALWAYS leaks from those things....
But, how do I go about this now? I NEED to wash my hands, cause, clearly like you can tell, I have NOT touched the laptop with fecal matter covered hands.... ALSO, I honestly have an aversion to touching bathroom doors with my hands, because, well, people, honestly, how many times have you gone to the bathroom and NOT washed your hands afterwards, yet proceeded to walk out and touch a door handle.... and even if YOU haven't, think about the amount of times it has happened PREVIOUS to you using a public restroom... a good example of this? A bathroom POST-game at a sporting event when the lines are out the door.... your in a rush and you piss, and go....in public restrooms, I always use paper towels to open the door after I wash cause of this....
SO.... touching the door to get out and wash my hands in a different bathroom, IE the kitchen sink, is NOT an option...
LEAVING THE DOOR OPEN... is not an option EITHER, because in addition to Holly being in the house (not that she would come in the bathroom, cause she won't) my gf's sister has a dog as well, but this dog is stupid. If you leave the bathroom door open, the dog will come in and nuzzle you while you are taking a shit, and, I'd rather not have a dog nuzzling me while I'm taking a shit... while it seems that alot of dogs LIKE shoving their noses in assing that are shitting, WHILE they are shitting, or immediately POST shitting, yeah, this isn't an option EITHER....
So, we're now back to the problem, how than in fact do I wash my hands, and the ORIGINAL question and non understandability of why my gf proceeds to stand her toothbrush up in front of the hand soap dispenser in the first place?!?!?!
Most times, I use my elbow and push the brush over onto the sink AWAY from where the soap dispenser is, but than, I feel bad that it hits the sink top, and I spend 5 minutes washing it, which, when your busying bumming around the house without a job, dude, those 5 minutes are FUCKING PRECIOUS, well, ok, TECHNICALLY those 5 minutes arent "fucking" the actress from the movie Precious, but, I think you caught my original meaning here, other times, I unroll some TP and grab it and move it with THAT, but, than, I'm wasting resources that in my current jobless position is dire to saving, since I don't have the 70 cents to go buy another roll.... I'd than wind up like one of those bums, except when I was walking around looking for deposit cans, instead of going and buying a 40 of Night Train or Olde E, or my FAV... Crazy Horse, or even some Georgi Vodka, I'd be the weirdo telling the cashier at Ralph's...
"dude, I walked around ALL FUCKING DAY for the deposits to get enough money to buy toilet paper to wipe my ass, cause I had to use the last of the previous roll to move my gfs toothbrush, because she ALWAYS places it RIGHT in front of the fucking hand soap dispenser!!!!"
So, as if you didn't think that the bathroom and emptying out WASN'T an adventure, most days, for me, it IS an adventure in here.
What to do about the toothbrush situation? I don't rightly know. I moved it before when I was in here, since, you know, it WAS in front of the hand soap dispenser, so, it won't be an issue AGAIN, but, what about tomorrow morning when I come in here for my morning glory?!?!?!
Yeah yeah yeah... I ALREADY know what you smart asses are thinking... why don't you just ask your gf to NOT put it in front of the hand soap dispenser, I have. Which leads me to think, maybe she put it there on purpose, and, while shes at work, gets a good fat laugh out of my puzzlement in the bathroom, knowing that I forget about shit like that UNTIL I see it sitting there.... and then I get all flustered about what am I gonna do?!?!?! AHHHH?!?!?
Well, if I start to believe that IS in fact the case.... maybe I'll start using her toothbrush to make EXTRA sure my butthole is clean..... HOW DO YOU LIKE ME NOW?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Excuse Me... Do You Know Where The Crapper Is?
I Need to drop off some timber...
Early today, haven't started looking for jobs yet, woke up about 45 minutes or so ago, was just getting my legs under me, than, the gurgling started, so I figured it best to come drop off some timber, even if it is earlier than normal.
SO, fingers crossed everyone that I have some luck finding some places to apply today!!!
Oh, and, yeah, I hit some button on error, so, chances are, if you are reading this previous to me editing the body of the post, its gonna say...
"Excuse Me... Do You Know Where The Crapper Is?"
in the title and nothing else....
Should be a fun an interesting weekend. My gf and her sister invited a few people over for Super Bowl sunday. I'm doing all the food prep, which is exciting for me, making some pop in the oven a cook shit, but alot of it will be more unique.
As for the Super Bowl, I'm not big into sports now as much as I was when I was younger. I was fairly good at baseball, but, never played football, and, I hated basketball, and sucked at it when I played in pick up games anyways, but, my gf and her sister are huge into football and my gf is huge into basketball. Respectivly they root for the broncos and chargers, I moved out here, and, decided since I didn't have a favorite team, I'd adopt the Raiders, which is kinda cool by me cause, the games I watched this year, the team was cool, and, Darren McFadden is fun to watch.... but, yeah, the Super Bowl, I grew up a Packers fan, Brett Favre is my fav player, but, the way Ted Thompson and Mike McCarthy ushered him out of Green Bay to me was offensive, especially when its to the greatest player in NFL history, so, I said I wouldn't root for Green Bay as long as those 2 were in charge of the team. So, while the Super Bowl is on, I'll prolly be cooking away at the stove... which is fine, I don't think the game will be all that good this year anyways, people seem to think I'm crazy for saying that, but, I feel like the loss of Markice Pouncey is a bigger blow than they are letting on, I mean, last week, after he got hurt, they fumbled away a ball and got tagged for a safety after another bad snap, so, I think Green Bay will win comfortably by winning by 10-14 points.
Making all sorts of fun stuff, homemade Pizza Rolls, Dips, Wings.... should be a fun experimental food day for me.
Man, I think I'm gonna go down and get me a energy drink, I feel like I need one today... kinda dragging.... OH thats a good topic to end with.
My GF and I are having a huge arguemant about if or when we have kids, possible names for them. I want to name our kid, if we have a son, Richard Dragon. She doesn't seem to think thats a good idea. She has dragons tatted on her, so she LIKES dragons, so, I don't see what the problem is. Richard Dragon is a good strong name that would intimidate anyone just by the sound of it. We argue about this often. Apparently I'm never going to win. It's all well and good, I'll let her THINK shes gonna win, than, when shes done going thru labor, and squeezing the kid out, I'll flip the doctor, or, anesteiologist like 50 bucks, and, have them give her like a ridiculous amount of painkillers, so, that way she passes out.... and when she wakes up, I'll present her with her new son, RICHARD DRAGON, as, by this time, I'll have put the name on the birth certificate and there will be NOTHING she can do!!!!!
(Mr. Burns from The Simpsons' Voice In Your Head?)
EXCELLENT
Early today, haven't started looking for jobs yet, woke up about 45 minutes or so ago, was just getting my legs under me, than, the gurgling started, so I figured it best to come drop off some timber, even if it is earlier than normal.
SO, fingers crossed everyone that I have some luck finding some places to apply today!!!
Oh, and, yeah, I hit some button on error, so, chances are, if you are reading this previous to me editing the body of the post, its gonna say...
"Excuse Me... Do You Know Where The Crapper Is?"
in the title and nothing else....
Should be a fun an interesting weekend. My gf and her sister invited a few people over for Super Bowl sunday. I'm doing all the food prep, which is exciting for me, making some pop in the oven a cook shit, but alot of it will be more unique.
As for the Super Bowl, I'm not big into sports now as much as I was when I was younger. I was fairly good at baseball, but, never played football, and, I hated basketball, and sucked at it when I played in pick up games anyways, but, my gf and her sister are huge into football and my gf is huge into basketball. Respectivly they root for the broncos and chargers, I moved out here, and, decided since I didn't have a favorite team, I'd adopt the Raiders, which is kinda cool by me cause, the games I watched this year, the team was cool, and, Darren McFadden is fun to watch.... but, yeah, the Super Bowl, I grew up a Packers fan, Brett Favre is my fav player, but, the way Ted Thompson and Mike McCarthy ushered him out of Green Bay to me was offensive, especially when its to the greatest player in NFL history, so, I said I wouldn't root for Green Bay as long as those 2 were in charge of the team. So, while the Super Bowl is on, I'll prolly be cooking away at the stove... which is fine, I don't think the game will be all that good this year anyways, people seem to think I'm crazy for saying that, but, I feel like the loss of Markice Pouncey is a bigger blow than they are letting on, I mean, last week, after he got hurt, they fumbled away a ball and got tagged for a safety after another bad snap, so, I think Green Bay will win comfortably by winning by 10-14 points.
Making all sorts of fun stuff, homemade Pizza Rolls, Dips, Wings.... should be a fun experimental food day for me.
Man, I think I'm gonna go down and get me a energy drink, I feel like I need one today... kinda dragging.... OH thats a good topic to end with.
My GF and I are having a huge arguemant about if or when we have kids, possible names for them. I want to name our kid, if we have a son, Richard Dragon. She doesn't seem to think thats a good idea. She has dragons tatted on her, so she LIKES dragons, so, I don't see what the problem is. Richard Dragon is a good strong name that would intimidate anyone just by the sound of it. We argue about this often. Apparently I'm never going to win. It's all well and good, I'll let her THINK shes gonna win, than, when shes done going thru labor, and squeezing the kid out, I'll flip the doctor, or, anesteiologist like 50 bucks, and, have them give her like a ridiculous amount of painkillers, so, that way she passes out.... and when she wakes up, I'll present her with her new son, RICHARD DRAGON, as, by this time, I'll have put the name on the birth certificate and there will be NOTHING she can do!!!!!
(Mr. Burns from The Simpsons' Voice In Your Head?)
EXCELLENT
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
UHHHHH Yeah, Droppin' Loads!!!
Prolly not really a relevant title, but, I feel it is, if not originally meant for that...
Spent some time online looking for job, not going well. Yeah, prolly how most of my midday entries are gonna start....
Went to one of the most GHETTO stores I've ever had the pleasure of frequenting yesterday.... a ghetto type discount warehouse, but it was AWESOME. Great prices on some stuff, most of the products were "damaged" and such, but LOL, still some great deals.
We have added it to our list of stores to hit up.
Spent most of the afternoon yesterday with my gfs sister out and about doing some shopping, the above store was our first stop, and, while mad ghetto, it was well worth the time and effort.
Proceeded to hit Ralph's for what was on the Ralph's list.
Kinda russan this entry cause I gotta get to the recycling place to return bottles and cans so I can get gas for my car, than, gonna hit up the 99 cent store to do the rest of my shopping for the time being. That place is awesome, don't let anyone tell you different, when you don't care about things like brand names, its much better to pay a buck for something than 4 dollars....
Than I'm back home to walk Holly. It's been a few days since shes been walked, and, I know she has a grand old time, so, I'll do that today. My car also needs to be washed. It's amazing to me, what my car would look like after a WINTER or snow and ice and water and salt in NY.... it looks like after a WEEK out here, from what my gf tells me is the smog. It's truly amazing how fast dirt and grime and shit build up on the finish of the car, and add in the fact I really don't drive that much? The air quality out here must be worse than working in a house with exposed asbestos.......
anyways, off to shower and start the day.
Spent some time online looking for job, not going well. Yeah, prolly how most of my midday entries are gonna start....
Went to one of the most GHETTO stores I've ever had the pleasure of frequenting yesterday.... a ghetto type discount warehouse, but it was AWESOME. Great prices on some stuff, most of the products were "damaged" and such, but LOL, still some great deals.
We have added it to our list of stores to hit up.
Spent most of the afternoon yesterday with my gfs sister out and about doing some shopping, the above store was our first stop, and, while mad ghetto, it was well worth the time and effort.
Proceeded to hit Ralph's for what was on the Ralph's list.
Kinda russan this entry cause I gotta get to the recycling place to return bottles and cans so I can get gas for my car, than, gonna hit up the 99 cent store to do the rest of my shopping for the time being. That place is awesome, don't let anyone tell you different, when you don't care about things like brand names, its much better to pay a buck for something than 4 dollars....
Than I'm back home to walk Holly. It's been a few days since shes been walked, and, I know she has a grand old time, so, I'll do that today. My car also needs to be washed. It's amazing to me, what my car would look like after a WINTER or snow and ice and water and salt in NY.... it looks like after a WEEK out here, from what my gf tells me is the smog. It's truly amazing how fast dirt and grime and shit build up on the finish of the car, and add in the fact I really don't drive that much? The air quality out here must be worse than working in a house with exposed asbestos.......
anyways, off to shower and start the day.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
I Wish I May, I Wish I Might...
so after finishing in here last night, I went back to bed, gf and dog both asleep, or, I'm sure Holly popped her head up, decided she didn't care about the bullshit I was pulling by moving around, Holly usually pops her head up, takes one look at what's going on, and walks out of the room, and, into the other room and goes back to sleep, but, I laid back down, and, for the first time I actually kinda appreciated the street light that shines thru the one window in my gf's bedroom.
While I have the blinds closed, and, turned down so no light gets in, it seems that no matter how I fix them, the street light between our neighbor to our left, and HIS neighbor to HIS left, ALWAYS shines thru somehow.
I have been trying to hide my face from it the better part of 3 months I've been out here, its kinda annoying to get a brief awake moment to get a drink from the bottle of water I keep next to the bed and than to try and get back to sleep, and you lay back down, and no matter what you do, you cannot just get that one little bit of light to STOP Shining on one of your eye lids.
Last night I had an awakening of sorts when I realized that, that street light is like my own personal star watching over me at night. Like that star at night sailors see that gives them hope cause maybe they HAVEN'T lost there way, even when they THINK they may have. Like a guardian angel always vigilant, to protect whom it was assigned to.
Listening to my mp3 player, staring at it gave me this odd sense of calmness I don't think I've had for a while, maybe, for the first time since I've moved out here.
I'm pretty much out of money, I have no job prospects, things haven't gone in ANYWAYS like I had planned, OR in anyway that I hoped, but seeing that light pushing thru the blinds last night, today, none of that seems to matter. I seem to be filled with a greater sense of hope and optimism than I have in a long time.
Maybe, just maybe, if I wish upon my own personal star tonight, maybe my wish will come true. Even if it doesn't, I feel ok because feeling like someone or something is watching over me, even when I feel like nothing is going right, when I was on the cusp of giving up hope that anything was going to change out here, gave me a renewed sense that there IS something greater out there for me than what I have now. All I have to do is have the faith and the patience to let it happen. But, if ANYTHING, I can think of my new friend whenever I get sad or upset or discouraged, and I can at least... Smile.
While I have the blinds closed, and, turned down so no light gets in, it seems that no matter how I fix them, the street light between our neighbor to our left, and HIS neighbor to HIS left, ALWAYS shines thru somehow.
I have been trying to hide my face from it the better part of 3 months I've been out here, its kinda annoying to get a brief awake moment to get a drink from the bottle of water I keep next to the bed and than to try and get back to sleep, and you lay back down, and no matter what you do, you cannot just get that one little bit of light to STOP Shining on one of your eye lids.
Last night I had an awakening of sorts when I realized that, that street light is like my own personal star watching over me at night. Like that star at night sailors see that gives them hope cause maybe they HAVEN'T lost there way, even when they THINK they may have. Like a guardian angel always vigilant, to protect whom it was assigned to.
Listening to my mp3 player, staring at it gave me this odd sense of calmness I don't think I've had for a while, maybe, for the first time since I've moved out here.
I'm pretty much out of money, I have no job prospects, things haven't gone in ANYWAYS like I had planned, OR in anyway that I hoped, but seeing that light pushing thru the blinds last night, today, none of that seems to matter. I seem to be filled with a greater sense of hope and optimism than I have in a long time.
Maybe, just maybe, if I wish upon my own personal star tonight, maybe my wish will come true. Even if it doesn't, I feel ok because feeling like someone or something is watching over me, even when I feel like nothing is going right, when I was on the cusp of giving up hope that anything was going to change out here, gave me a renewed sense that there IS something greater out there for me than what I have now. All I have to do is have the faith and the patience to let it happen. But, if ANYTHING, I can think of my new friend whenever I get sad or upset or discouraged, and I can at least... Smile.
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