One of the biggest problems I have being out of work is that the days all kinda seem to blend together.
I'm pretty sure its Tuesday, but, I'm not 100% sure. Add in the fact my gf is home sick from work again, lets see if she actually listens to my suggestion about not filling her lungs with smoke while shes sick....I wonder if she took anything?.... it's also throwing me off quite a bit.
Being out of work sucks for me. I've only been out of work for one other extended period of time in my life. After seperating from the evil heartless drug chain, their CEO must be a mix of Mr. Burns from The Simpsons, The Grinch, if, you know, his black heart NEVER got all big, AND Ebenezzer Scrooge if after visiting with 4 ghosts, he basically said, Fuck It I'll keep being who I want to be, I was out of work from November 06 till April of 07.
On a side note, its funny how the 3 long term jobs I've had since i decided college wasn't my "thing", but decision their, ALL ended the 1st week of November.
But, when I left Black Hearted/Heartless Drug chain (different, yet the same) I took a month to decide what direction I wanted my life to go down. It than took 3 months to actually GET the job I applied for. I put my application in before christmas of 06, and didn't actually START the job till the 2nd week of April, and, this was after being TOLD I had the job.... which is fine, that is kinda how government works.
This is different tho. I moved out here with the expectation with my 10+ years retail management experience that I would AT LEAST pick up a job for the holidays, and, possibly parlay that into a regular working job so I could save up some cash and get my California drivers license and than apply for better jobs.
This didn't happen. So, as each day passes my original plan keeps getting pushed back further and further. See, out here, and I do fully understand why, it seems you need a California Drivers liscence to apply for jobs you drive a vehicle for a company. IE Time Warner cable installers, Water Companys, Government Jobs... In NY, that doesn't seem to be the case, as a dude I worked with at my last job, shitbreath, clearly had a Florida drivers license, yet was allowed to be a truck driver from where I worked.
In case your wondering, California has all sorts of crazy laws out here that pertain to DMV stuff. Sure GETTING a license isn't the problem, money wise... but California has some doomaas law that says if you transfer your liscence over from a different state, and you have a car registered in your name, you have 10 days to re register that car in California, OR sell it.
I don't have the "paper" right now to do that. Add onto that there is ANOTHER california law that says if a car is purchased within a certain time frame (mind you it doesn't say how long that time frame IS) from out of state, you have to pay the California sales tax on the purchase price, well, I don't have the 9% of original purchase price to drop on paying some stupid california fees, it brings me to the predicamite I am in now.
Hence why NOT being able to pick up a job for a few months to save that money is so stressful.
Everyone keeps telling me to be positive and optimistic... but when does it become time to STOP being positive and optimistic, and start becoming REALISTIC? I gave up so much to come out here and start a life with my gf, and it seems like nothing is going at all right since I got here. I try and ignore this on a daily basis, do what i need to do spending hours online in the morning looking for and applying for jobs online. I spent 3 days last week driving around asking places in person about jobs, to which i was told, do it online at 10 of the 12 places I went, and, it has been implied by people THATS why I'm not getting a job... to which after going to all those places it was like, they all just told me to apply and look at their online websites, all I have done NOW is, waste 3 full days of job hunting online, AND money in that I used up gas.
Ok I'm rambling on.....
Back on point, it's hard to know what day it is anymore when I don't have a routine going. I'm not the type of person to be lazy and be out of work, and it's killing me to be out of work. I enjoy being LAZY, but, I enjoy being productive, and not having a job makes me feel unproductive and useless. Add onto the fact that I'm ALSO not the type of person to ask for handouts and assistance, I can't bring myself to apply for government aid, there ARE actually people more needy than I, as a family member of someone who is handicapped, and having friends whose kids are, as well as being friends with people who are, my not having a job is a reason to apply for any of those government funded handouts. There are people WAY more needy than me that get their money thru government funding, and, I wouldn't want any money I got to take away from them and make THEM suffer. Guess I'm just glad I have a roof over my head at this point.
IDK. Anyways, better get off the pot, because I don't gotta shit no more.
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